Broken, Beyond Repair

~Chapter 39~

As I run out I feel all the eyes around me looking straight at me. Even his...

Jack: "Jenn! Wait!" No no no. "Jenn, please!" Of course that had to happen.

Don't push it farther, Jack.

As you should know, I've been cutting and crying just as I said earlier. But, I can't go back to him. It can't be a choice I make.

But it has to.

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I stand in the bathroom looking at myself in the mirror. I'm such an ugly ass mother fucking shitty girl. Why would Jack want me anyway?

I take a razor blade out from the drawer and slice for many reasons.

Ugly.

Slice.

Stupid.

Slice.

Rejected.

Slice.

Suicidal.

Slice.

The blood drips from my arm to the floor. I feel myself getting weaker after each slice. It makes me so upset that I'm not as strong as I want to be.

You don't just go back to a person after they hurt you right? That's very dumb, isn't it? I mean, they hurt you. But the thing is, is it normal to want to go back to them?

I need to think of other reasons Jack would do that. If they aren't dating, why else would he say that to her. I honestly can't think of anything else.

Maybe I should've let him explain. No, after all that? Ugh I can't handle this. This pisses me off.

The doorbell rings..