"What's stage 1B?" Mom asked, her facial expressions relieved after knowing it's good news.
"The tumor is in the breast less than 2cm and there are small groups of cancer cells greater than 0.2mm and less than 2mm in the lymph nodes" The doctor explained.
"Oh, now talk english" Zack said.
"It means that the cancer hasn't spread much and it can be treated." He re-explained.
"So, what's the treatment plan?" James asked.
"Lumpectomy plus radiation.. It's a surgery where only the tumor and the surrounding tissue are removed."
"So what is the need for radiation?" Dad asked.
"We do it to eliminate any cancer cells that maybe present in the remaining breast tissue"
"So it won't come back!" Meg squeeled.
"It would, that's why she should do a check up every 3 months" James interfered.
"Anyways all of you, I want you not to tell anyone alright?"
"Why?" Riley asked.
"I don't want people to know okay?"
"Fine" She said.
The doctor decided that the surgery will be the day after tomorrow.. I have one day before 7 weeks of torture with radiation.
"Dad" I said "I've decided to take my caurses online for the time"
"Anything you want" He said.
I have one thing I want to do, no I need to do.. I have to break up with Tobias.
"Why are you breaking up with him?" Riley yelled.
"Because, I want to be comfortable in my misery and not worry about how I look for him."
"That's not a good reason"
"I think it is.. Don't you dare tell anyone alright?"
"But you love him" She told me.
"I like him, there's a huge difference."
"Well it's your choice.. What should I tell people when they ask about you?"
"You mean the Kipley's and Tobias?" She nodded "Tell them I dropped out or whatever.. Just tell them a good lie."
"Goodluck with your break up" She said when I reached my destination.
"Yeah thanks"
"Finally you're back" Tobias welcomed me with a tight hug and a peck on the lips. "I've missed you" He said. Oh my God!! I thought that I was prepared. I let out an uncomfortable and hesitant smile.
"I think we should talk" I said gently but fast..
"Yeah sure" His smile dropped slightly. "What's up"
It's like removing a bandage just say it quickly.
"I think we should break up" I said.
"What? We talked two days ago until 4 AM.. We were fine, right? At least I think we were"
"It's not you.. It's me.." I started to say after not knowing what to respond. We were fine two days ago, but now everything changed for me.. and I'm not fine. Not anymore.
"Don't start with that shit! I've mastered those words now tell me the reason"
What should I say? I started to panic.. Adrenaline flooding through my veins and blood rushing to my cheeks.. "Okay, fine.. I.. I have.. I haven't been happy for 2 months now." I had to lie..
"I don't buy it" He stiffened, you're lying.
"I'm not!"
"You've been away for the vaccation.. Have you met someone?" He asked stiffly.
"No!! See main reason is that you don't trust me at all."
"I'm sorry.. I do but you're breaking up with me.. I just don't understand why."
"I'm sorry Tobias.. But I don't.. I'm not happy anymore.. I have to go.. Please don't call" I stood up and left.. That went well.. Note the sarcasim.
"You should've told him.. You should have" Jade told me over the phone.. I just woke up after surgery and Jade was the only one not here.. She had an exam.
"It's my choice" I said "And I'll tell whom ever I wanna tell"
Everyone kept demanding that I should tell him, but that was not going to happen.
