"Megan.. I moved on. I can't be with you." Chad whispered to her in the hallway outside my bedroom "Stop saying crap about Laura because I'm not going back to you"
"But it's not crap. Ask James.. She was flirting with him the whole time.. You really should pay attention and open your eyes Chad, I already have a boyfriend."
"You do?" He sounded surprised that she moved on.
"His name is Lucas Greison, he's in Yale too.." She explained. They started dating when I was first diagnosed with ovarian cancer..
"Fine! But I'm sure that you're wrong" He said then entered my room as if he didn't just have a brutal talk with Meg. He smiled, kissed my forehead and left wishing me goodluck. Today, I was taking my final exams in college. I can't believe that it's the second semestir already.
It's weird how time has flown and suddenly I'm in the final chemo session. I was excited about finishing and becoming cancer free.. I know I'll have to do monthly check ups but I'll be back to normal, and my family could finally grow their hair back.
"So, cancer free?" I asked my doctor who was smiling at me.
"Almost" With that word that came easily out of his mouth, I felt drained and hopeless.. Suddenly my tears welled up in my eyes and I couldn't hold them back. "two more chemo and It's done"
"No." I said out loud "Noway. No more chemo. I want the surgery. I want it."
"Honey, 2 more chemo sessions won't hurt" Mom said.
"But it does, it hurts.. It's like you die a thousand times. I want the surgery"
"Baby.. I want you to carry your own children" Mom tried to persuade me into chemo.
"I want to be cancer free.. I'm 19 and I don't need your consent.. I want the surgery John. As fast as you can"
"I'll give you some time" John said.
"I don't need time, you schedual a surgery or I'm going to another hospital" I threatened.
"Alright, next Wednesday"
"Okay"
"Are you sure you want to get rid of your breasts?" Riley asked.
"I'll get artificial ones.. It's fine. I can't believe they made me go to chemo while I can just do a freaking simple surgery."
"Surgeries aren't simple" James said "Complications happen all the time"
"Are you trying to talk me out of it? It won't work. I prefer to die than going to chemo. You don't know how it feels."
"Stop it"
"Stop what?"
"Stop acting like your the girl that fought cancer and her life is miserable"
"James!!" Riley yelled.
"What? Just telling her to stop being snobby" He said.
"So I'm acting like a snob for doing the surgery and wanting to be healthy?"
"No you're acting like a snob for keep reminding everyone that you have cancer.. Boohoo big deal.."
"It is a big deal" Riley said.
"Not if she needs two more sessions to be cured."
"You weren't here.." I whispered "You have no idea how it feels to go into chemo and deal with its effects. You don't know the pain I felt everyday and the need to eat, but you can't because you dread the vomit after. So you end up starving, in pain, cold and vomiting anyways then you wake up in the hospital and you tell Steve not to call anyone because you got used to almost dying. Don't come telling me that cancer isn't a big deal until you try it!" My voice was loud now.. Almost yelling.
"So now you're a hero" He said mockingly.
Before I could talk, James was flying backwards our eyes instantly on Steven. When did he get here?
"What the hell man?! I was just teasing her. To see her reaction." That gave him a slap on the face.. Not from me though. It was Riley. She hit him. For the first time Riley hit one of the boys.
"You think it's funny?! You're stupid.. I hate you right now.. I do. Now get out of the room! Leave" I instantly started laughing. His face was priceless and it's weird when Riley acts like me. They joined me after the shock of what happened left their indescribable faces.
"Riley" It was the night of the surgery "Scoot over" I said.
"What's wrong" She asked as I laid next to her.
"I had this dream.. I'm old and alone and everyone has children except for me.. That I'm on my death bed and there's no one holding my hand."
"You're not going to die."
"But in the future I will.. I don't want to die alone" I said with fear dancing in my voice.
"You won't.. I promise.. We'll be there for you plus you froze your ovaries, you just need a surrogate mother and you'll have your child."
"Alright" I said snuggling into her quilt and slept.
Today I went back to college.. I wanted to find my ex-boyfriend to get him back. I wasn't thinking when I broke up with him. I was afraid that he'll leave me after knowing how much cancer is tiring, but now that I'm okay, I want him back. I couldn't ask Riley about him since she doesn't know.. Riley and Tom broke up soon after I broke up with Tobias. She didn't cry or weap as always, she was weirdly angry at him and strong. I didn't ask her about it as she didn't want to talk about it.
"Hey" I saw Jane sitting on a bench. "Where's Kayla?" I asked.
"Hillary? Is that you? Oh my God you're so thin? Where did you disappear?"
"Oh. I um was sick for a long time. I studied online. So where's Kayla?"
"Oh you didn't know? The Kipleys moved to China. Mr Robert opened a new department for his Company over there."
"Ooh.. I didn't know" That explains everything, but why was Riley mad? I weaped when Dylan moved away. I'll ask her later.
