Two months after my conversation with Megan, after having my life turned upside down by no one other than Tobias, after spending at least an hour a day with him.. I decided I need a break. A break from what exactly? I didn't know, but I needed time to clear my mind, to put my thoughts together. I can't think straight anymore.
I knock on Tobby's door to tell him about my feelings, but he isn't home.. I walk to a nearby restaurant to find him sitting there with Collin and a tall, slim, brown haired beauty. She looks like the models in the magazines and I instantly hated her. I found myself walking over to their table, but I stopped when I saw the woman that I don't like reaching for Tobias's hand with a soft devilish smile on her face, and Tobias didn't say a word or pull away. He then glanced my way and his eyes were fixed on me. His eyes were filled with horror, he knew thay he's been caught.. He then turns back to the woman that has been talking to him and he smiles at her and nods as if I do not exist. I turned around and left him.. He was supposed to be by my side, not to hurt me.. But yet he did. Why am I upset anyways, I was going to break up with him right? Right.
"I don't know Ri" I told her "He didn't even try to explain.. He pretended that I wasn't there"
"Did you ask him for an explanation?"
"No, but it doesn't matter... I'm calling him to end our relationship, he just made it easier for me."
"If you want someone to kick his ass I'll send Adrian" She offered. Adrian is extremely muscular and trained.. He actually works as a trainor. He has his own gym and he trains people privately.
"Naah I'll pass, maybe some other time."
"Anytime you want he'll be there"
"Hello? Hillary.. I'm glad you called. I need to talk to you" If he needed to talk to me, he should've called me.
"I don't have time to talk, I just want to tell you that I need space"
"What? You're breaking up with me?"
"Uh, yeah kind of." A lump started to form in my throat "I need time to think so let me be for a while" I said.
"Think about what?"
"I'm sorry Tobias.. I just need time" I said and quickly hung up not letting him say a thing.
I quickly wiped away the tear that traced down my cheek and went to do my housework. I picked up the kids from school and dropped them off each at a friend's house, they're all having sleepovers..
Steph wants a car, I told her that if she gets a part time job to be able to pay for gas and car cleaning I'll get her one and she agreed.. So now Ryland and Steph are searching for part time jobs. Jake is spending the night with his friends Lee and Marcus.. And Adam is having a slumber party with a bunch of kids at my friend's house.
After dropping off my children, I went straight to work, some students came up to me after the lecture to ask me if I'm alright.. I have a good relationship with my students, I guess I do look off today.
I went back home, almost falling asleep behind the wheel, but something woke me up, not something, Someone.. Him.
I thought about starting the car to leave but he was at my doorstep now heading towards me.. I got out of the car and walked to him saying "I thought you were giving me space Tobias" But as soon as he reached me he pulled me to his chest and a yelp escaped my mouth..
"This is all the space you're getting from me Hillary.. This is all the space you get" He said whispering to my ear squeezing me against his chest.. There was no space at all.
"Tobias.. Can't.. Breathe" I said trying to inhale some air.
"Sorry" He said releasing me. "But I don't want to lose you Hillary."
"I'm sorry Tobias but I just need some time away from you" I say tears starting to well in my eyes.
"If it's about what you saw in the restaurant.. I can explain"
"It's not about.." But he cut me off.
"Her name is Carla, she's Collin's mother.. She's been clean for 3 months now and she was trying to make amends.. I didn't explain then because she was telling Collin and I how sorry she was and it wouldn't be good to cut her off and go after another woman." I was another woman to him? "We just decided on visiting her every weekend until she is completely clean so Collin could go alone to visit.. That's all" He told me quickly afraid that I would cut him off.
"Oh" I say "But I was going to break up with you before seeing you with your ex.. I just need time."
"I always knew that I love you more than you love me Hillary.. I told you I'm gonna make you love me and when you're finally letting me in, you do this? Why?"
"It's complicated.. It's not you.. It's me" I can't believe I just used that line, I sound like a bitch. "I mean," Tears started falling down my cheeks as I started to explain "I just can't think around you Tobby.. And I need to think" I say.
Tobias's sad expressions turns into an amazing, breath taking smile. "It's not complicated at all Hillary.. You just love me without realizing it" He says cupping my cheeks and wiping my tears away with his thumbs.
"How do you know?" I ask.
"Because you can't think around me, because of the look on your face when you saw me with another woman, because you're crying because you're breaking up with me, because your kids love me, because I love you" He said it confidently but still afraid.. He then kissed me and I couldn't help but kiss him back.. I do love him.. I really do.
The End
