Alone (James Cassells Fanfic)

Wake Up

~James’s P.O.V~

“James come here I need to tell you something” Sam sighed as he kicked my leg, I was laying on the couch with my hands over my face, still sore from when Sierra punched me in the face. Everything from that night was such a blur, I never got a chance to apologize because everyone has been keeping me busy to stay away from her and I was getting a little sick of it because I really wanted to work things out with her.

“Fuck you, you come over here and just tell me” I groaned, he sighed and walked over to the couch standing over me.

“Sierra is-“

“Is she okay? I didn’t hurt her to bad did I? Is she going to come talk to me?” I shot up and started to ask him so many questions as soon as I heard Sierra’s name. He rubbed his face again before trying to find the words, I could feel a pain I my chest it was weird but I guess it’s what I get.

“No, she didn’t want me to tell you until today. Sierra is leaving to go on tour with Dayshell.” My eyes widen as words left his mouth.

“When is she leaving?!” I choked out; I could feel the ripping of my heart it was just as bad as when I cheated on her. Or when I woke up the next morning from her punching me the pain was just terrible, it was like a hard night of drinking mixed with the most terrible regret and guilt.

“Now” He breathed out, I ran toward the window of the apartment and looked down at the street. I saw Sierra there packing her things in a cab before turning to hug a tall blonde girl which must have been Sophie since Krissy is back on tour again.

“Sierra!” I screamed out from the window, she turned to look at me before hoping into the car. I didn’t hesitate before running out of the apartment and jumping down the stairs trying to get to the cab just before she took up. I knew I wasn’t going to make it, but at least I tried; at least I could catch Sophie and ask her why Sierra didn’t tell me and just everything.

“No, no, no!” I screamed as the cab just zoomed off as I ran outside, I turned to look at Sophie who had a disgusted look on her face.

Now if you look on the side, it's the GIF that explains your feels right now.
~Sie

“You’re too late, James. Maybe, if you would have just stayed with her that night she would still be here” Sophie said before walking away, I rubbed my face as all I wanted to do was just cry.

I never expected something like this to hurt so much, I hurt Sierra badly. I cheated on her with some damned groupie girl because I was drunk and upset about her not talking to me as much as I would’ve liked her too, then I overacted way to much when I saw that picture of her and Fronz. Leading up to the night were I found her so vulnerable in the hallway, and what did I do? I fucking left her alone that night; I didn’t stay with her when I should have stayed with her and worked things out.  Now she’s gone again, and I have no idea when she is going to come back. It seems like I’m in this alone this time, and I don’t think I’m quite prepared.

“Wake the fuck up!” Sam yelled as he started to jump on my bed, it was week number 3 that Sierra has been gone.  She seems to be really having the time of her life; I have been seeing pictures and posts all over the place.  She looks happier now than she did when she was here fighting with me all the time and worrying about me but I guess this was for the best as much as it sucked.

“James, come on get up I have a surprise for you today” Sam groaned as he grabbed me by my ankles and ripped me out of bed.

“What the fuck is up with you and Ben! Always fuckin-“

“Stop fucking complaining and get up we have a show to go to today, fucking wanker” Krissy yelled as she walked into my room, clearly not looking too happy at all. Danny appeared next to her, with the biggest smile on his face.