confessions of a total loser

DEEP POEMS (THE OUTCOME)

title: lost purpose

heat up as hot as a phone
come ice cold when you're alone
takin' shots from a shot glass
watchin' all these strangers pass

lovers walk down hand in hand
and you feel as empty as abandoned lands

you're forced to be happy,
like how a computer is turned on
mum tells you to shape up
because apparently nothing's wrong

they play you like their favorite album
they switch you when the next one's out
tears fall like crystals on snowy mountains
droplets fall from water spouts

whenever it's a gloomy day,
you just think about mikeyway
turn the fan on and just sit there
'coz you know you ain't going anywhere

you hear cats meowin' outside
but nothing just feels right
the meows are empty on the inside
and you try to deny...

the fact that they pull you apart like you're bread
oh, the taunting voices in your head
so you lie in bed instead
trying to contemplate what happened

losin' these connections like how you lose wifi
even though you wake up everyday to try
nothing's good enough, they all shut you down
they ignore you once again, you feel like nothing but a clown

you find your purpose in a candlestick
but soon enough, the fire's gonna burn the candle's wick
you try to blow out the fire with all your might
because soon enough, hope's out of sight

your senses wither away like how ash falls from incense
slowly as the fire devours you, i can't take your pretense
tick tock goes your potato clock
as you try to pick the lock

you smell of one direction perfume
but your mind's going the other direction
the infection is spreading,
you're desperate to find a cure
you're brain is turning against
from when it was still pure

all light is lost, and now you're lying by yourself
relieve me, tell me you're okay
because the world is getting dark
and i need you to stay

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cOPYRIGHT HAILEY 2015

HOW WAS THAT

IT DIDN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE

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