Beep *fuck me*
Beep
Beep*throws alarm away*
Beep
Beep *stabs myself*
"Oh shut the fuck up" getting up and grabbing a pair of skinnies and black and white spaghetti strap top I go to the bathroom curl my hair and roll my eyes at my shoes.
"I dont want to put you on you bastards." I growl and shove my toes into the Vans with a cringe at the ugly loud squeak the heel makes. It's too early, why did they think early assemblies were a good idea. Fuck this new principal, he's already pissing me off.
Grabbing my phone and turning on Google play I listen to Twenty One Pilots and try not to cry.
Goddammit emotions why can't you leave me alone right now? I don't need to start my day off with tears and heartache that's for sundays.
Carrying myself down the stairs while pulling on a maroon open sweater I give up and sit down letting my butt bounce down the stairs till I'm at the bottom sobbing my eyes out.
"Stop stop crying you idiot just get up. Be good. Stop crying" I speak out to the warm quiet air filling my lungs. I let out a few more tears before pulling myself up.
"Stop being such a huge pussy. No one like a dumb emotional bitch. No one will love you." Wiping my cheeks I pull my sweater up and wipe away the extra mascara and grab my car keys.
"Fuck this I have to get to school I already missed the damn bus." I growl at myself and mentally prepare myself for the panic attack sure to happen.
Quickly walking to my car I look around to make sure no one saw me. Carefully Climbing into the Scout I whimper as I shut the door. It slams because of how heavy it is. I wish Calum was here.
Sticking the keys in the ignition I stiffen as the engine purrs for me.
"Hi mommy" little prayers slip from my lips as I put the car in drive and pull away from the house trying not to let the tears stain my cheeks like they do so often.
"It's ok see you're fine Kat it's ok." I breathe out and look in the rear view mirror and smile a little. Pushing the radio buttons I settle on old rock for now and nod my head to myself until a sparkle catches my eyes. The angel on the rear view mirror dangling in from of my face.
Moms here for me. That's all I know at this point she's here and she won't let anything happen to me. Seeing the school parking lot it's partially empty and I find a good spot up front. Hoping out I look next to me and see a familiar looking car. Like the one Calum has.
Taking my phone and hurrying to the gym I take a seat in the front and plug in my head phones trying to calm myself from the new experience this morning.
Wiping away a tear people start filling the gym quickly and the curtains to the stage opens a bit Mr Glymer (glimmer) looks through nodding and going back before the curtains opens completely.
Taking one earphone out we all look up the gym suddenly eerily quiet. Catching my eye is a patch of familiar blonde hair and my breath catches. The girl next to me smirks.
"I know isn't he hot as hell. I'm sure as hell gonna get in some trouble just to see that one." I fake laugh at her but honestly feel like ripping her head off for thinking anything about Cal.
"What the fuck is he doing here?" Whispering to myself I take my phone and text his number.
To cal: what the fuck are you doing here?
From cal: what are you talking about babe?
He looks down at his phone a frown along his features and I smile a bit. He knows I'm in high school still right? I mean we are almost finished with senior year I graduate in August and it's June. Maybe he won't care. I am eighteen.
