Unfading Connection (complete)

Journey

Anton's POV

It's amazing how a simple girl like Eli can slowly change me. I was never this interested with any girl before..........until now.

She's supposed to be just an ordinary girl but for me she is different.

She is special.

She made me welcome feelings that I did not give a damn before. She can make me twist my rules, my principles. She can make me change my mind that easily. She can persuade me without even lifting her hand. Just a look in her beautiful eyes that go straight in my heart, I am besotted.

But she can turn my world upside down at the same time. When she left me that time with those tears in her eyes, I felt my world shaken. I felt that I am a bad person. I felt I took advantage of her innocence. It's true that I am trying to make her play my game. But she is exactly the opposite of most women I met. She don't do sex for fun.......or for pleasure.

Now I know now that she is preserving herself to a special man in his life.

And that is me. I am very lucky.

I don't know about her past relationships. She told me she has none but maybe she was infatuated or had fallen to another man before that did not progress. I feel jealous. I know I am her first intimate relationship but still I want to be the only one in her heart. Why am I becoming possessive when it comes to her. I can't bear the thought of another man in her life past or present..........and even the future. I shook my head for I can't believe what are those things playing in my mind. Maybe because the thought that she will be far from me and I can't bear it. But I have to respect her decisions and I can't believe it that I allowed her.

Does she love me?

Maybe she does? Maybe it's just too early to tell or I don't know. I never entertained the word love until now that I felt this from her. And maybe it is too much but I want her to love me.

My conceited suspicion of her feelings for me is becoming more when I found out that I am her first. But even if I was not, really I can't deny that I like her very much. I can't remove her from my mind no matter what I do. Her face keeps on haunting me. From the first moment I saw her, I know that I was attracted to her and during those times I know we both developed our feelings to each other. I just feel so special when she allowed me in her life. I took her virtue and I feel excited to teach her more and bring out more her passionate side. The past days were so blissful for both of us specially me. I just can't get enough of her. I want that it will only be me and she will never seek for another one except me.

I am selfish when it comes to her.

She is my Eli.

She is mine.........all mine.

I watch her fix her things going to Lawreth City. I hate the idea. I can give her all she needs. I have money and power but she just keeps on rejecting my offers. I gave up. I have to respect her decision. I can't reason out. She said that we can work it out. We just have to reach out and understand each other.

Her bachelor's apartment is small but cozy. I see how she fix it well. She's so simple and natural. I saw the books on a makeshift shelf which I was curious to open the first time we met in the mansion. Her lap top sitting on a small table is not the latest model but I see a nice 3D house design on the screen. I got more curious of what she exactly does. I did not ask her before, it's my fault. I want to know her more. She knows a lot about me but me I barely ask much about her.

"This is a nice house design, sweetheart. Is this your dream house?" I smiled while I touch the screen of the lap top. I can build it for her.

"Nope. It is not my dream house." She went near my side and she push me to sit on the chair in front of the table. She clicked the house design and I see the magnificent interior of it.