Unfading Connection (complete)

What was Mine

                  

Eli's POV

I did not hear anything from Anton for a two weeks now since the day he left my place. I remember that day when he closed the door, how I cried a lot. I kissed him back pouring all the feelings I have for him for I know it will be the last........I know it's goodbye forever. It hurts me a lot but this is better than pretending that we had a chance, pretending that he loves me back, pretending that there is future between us. Though his last words keep hunting me, I better not hold on to false hopes. I am done with that and to move on I must start it right........to face reality, my reality.

But I will never regret that I loved him. Being true to myself is nothing to be ashamed of. I still love him. It's ironic that the same love that awaken my being is the same love that brought me heartache that leads to my devastation. If I suppressed my feelings, I will also get hurt. It's a matter of choice and acceptance of the outcome. Nobody knows what's in the end of the road til one gets there. Some road has turning back. Some has none.

I chose to love not expecting something in return so I have to accept my fate. I can't turn back 'cause I allowed myself to be pulled in that direction. Maybe someday I can see another road for me to start with. Not now but someday. My heart will soon be healed and that's the time I can tract the new road of my life.

I thank God that at least my work is going smoothly. Somehow during the days that I was depressed the work is not that hectic. I thank John for that. I think he sensed that something is wrong with me that's why he never bothered me for things he can manage by himself. From time to time I see him checking on me. Bringing food, coffee and asking how am I doing. His gestures of concern mean a lot as he pat my shoulder silently telling everything will be alright.

I was surprised when John rushed inside the room without knocking as he usually does. Even he is already inside he knocks just to announce his presence. I can see the worried look in his eyes.

"Eli," he came beside me and hold my shoulder something he usually don't do. I looked at him in bewilderment, "Did you see the news today?" I shook my head and waiting for what he will tell.

"Mr. Anton Montecarlos just had a car accident yesterday and he is in a critical condition!" 
I felt that I am submerged in cold water. I can't move. I am trying to decipher what John has just told me.

"It's all over the news. Look!" He showed me the paper he is holding. Knowing Anton is one of famous businessmen in the country, his accident will definitely be all over the news.

I start shaking. I can't believe what I am hearing, what I am seeing.
John hug me for comfort. He knows how do I feel for Anton and he is such a good person to be in such concern with my well-being even he knows Anton is his rival.
"Don't worry. You know sometimes the news is exaggerated. Maybe he is not in that bad shape." He soothes me by his words and embrace.

When I'm able to compose myself, John left to fetch me a glass of water.

"Thank you very much, John. I really appreciate it." I told him sincerely.

He just nods and smile. "I' m just here for you Eli. So what are your plans?"

"Plans?" I looked at him confused. I don't know whom to tell my predicament. I don't have any close friends to trust. Perhaps John can give a lending ear though it is awkward as the situation is not proper.

"Eli, I know I have feelings for you and I am courting you but that doesn't mean that I can't be an aid to you when it comes to him. I am still your friend. I told you before I am just here for you."

"John..........Anton and I.......we are not really in a serious relationship," I confess as tears flow in my cheeks. "We just ended what we have two weeks ago as he is already engage." I admit bitterly.