I think... I'm in love with my mistress

Chapter 13

Tomoe just sat there while I leant my head against his shoulder. He didn't move a muscle. I sighed and brought my head off his shoulder. He instantly looked at me, with a confused expression.

~~~Tomoe POV~~~
(Y/n) just took her head off my shoulder, did I upset her? I stared at her confused. "Is something wrong (Name)?" She just looked at me, not saying a word. No sign of whether she was upset or just looking at me. "Tomoe, do you love me?" I gulped, how should I respond? I do love her but I don't know how to tell her. I just remained quiet. I looked out the window, at the vast night sky. I heard her shuffle away from me, I glanced at her and saw her head drooping down, wet tears streaming down her face. "Tomoe, you jerk." She muttered as she bolted up and left the room. I was left in shock. I growled and slammed my fist on the wooden floor, "I'm such a idiot...." I said to myself. "Why couldn't I say I loved her too? I wanted to say it but the words just wouldn't come out. And now I've hurt
(Y/n)'s feelings......" I kept muttering to myself about how much of a idiot I am.

---Reader's POV---
What a idiot!!!! What an absolute Idiot! I ran to my room and flung myself into the bed. Why did I say that to him? I bet he doesn't even feel that way towards me, wait. But didn't he tell me he loved me when he was in bed with me....... I run my tears away and sit on my bed, sniffling and sobbing silently. I moved off my bed and looked out the window.
Maybe he doesn't love me like he said.
It was just a joke, since he was drunk...
And I was a fool to believe him!
I huffed and face planted into my bed, screaming into my sheets. It felt good to release all that built up angry and frustration, but it wouldn't fully help me. My mind was mixed up, I was sad and angry. Bewildered and clear minded. I was going insane! All these feelings! All because I don't know what to do, all because of Tomoe...... I look up at the ceiling. Why do you make me feel like this Tomoe?

~~~Tomoe POV~~~
What's wrong with me? I can't express my feelings...... I'm a fool and an idiot. I sighed and continued to look at the clear sky. (Y/n)...... I'm sorry, I would tell you I loved you but.......I can't.
"Why can't I?" I asked myself. "Why is it so hard to say three little words?!" Getting frustrated I slammed my face into the wall.
Because it's not just three little word..... It's how I truly feel about her. And I'm too scared to say it to her, I'm a coward. No one has ever made me feel so confused about myself. She makes my head spin, my stomach turn, my cheek hot. I do love you, (Y/n)..... I just need the courage to say it to you...... Those thoughts buzzed in my head for hours and hours.