Hey, sweetie.
I'm so sorry I haven't written to you in so long. It's been crazy here, touring gets hectic and I don't always have just time for myself. Which is the best way, to be honest. I have barely even been alone this past month. And I'm honestly so grateful for the guys, they've been keeping me in such a good mood lately. If someone looked at me, they would never guess that I lost every good part of myself just four months ago. Four fucking months.
Can you believe it? Because I fucking can't. It seemed like an entire lifetime. It's crazy to even think about. It's crazy to think about anything that's been apart of my life.
I am such a lucky dude, and I take it for granted everyday.
I had the most beautiful woman in the world, and I was able to call her mine. I get to tour the world with my three best mates. There are thousands of people, millions even, that love me and wish to meet me, and I can't even stand looking in the mirror.
I have fucked up one too many times, and I barely appreciate anything..
I am going to change this. I am going to learn to love myself just the same way that you somehow did. I won't take anything for granted, and I will be happy. It may take awhile, so please be patient. And please stay by my side? It'd be a huge relief if I knew I had an angel like you looking over my shoulder, guarding me.
Maybe the next time I write you, there will be a difference.
When you said your last goodbye,
I died a little bit inside.
I lay in tears in bed all night,
Alone without you by my side.
-All I Want
I'm doing this for you. I love you so much, baby.
Calum. xx
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A/N
Howdy, y'all.
I hope you're enjoying this story. It kills me to write, or even imagine Cal in such a hard place.
Remember to appreciate everything you have, because who knows when it will be taken from you.
AND
I've been going back in the previous chapters and just cleaning them up because apparently I can't spell. So I'm sorry if it tells you I've updated ten thousand time, (Im not exactly sure if it will or not.)
YOU ARE READING
Jenny.
Fanfiction"How could you give someone so peaceful to the world, something so fucked up towards the world?" I ask 'god', thinking he could hear me. "She was one of the best things I had... And you took her away from me.. Just like that? What did I do? What di...
