Dear Jenny,
Hi, sweetie.
Its been a month and a week. Its weird how I used to never know what day it was, and now I can tell you exactly how long its been since you passed. Its crazy how much can change over one thing. Like, me and the boys haven't had a real conversation in so long. Mum and I got into a fight. I never imagined a day when I'd get into an argument, let alone on non-speaking terms. It sucks. Everything, really. I hate not talking to mum. I always talk to her. Me and the boys being awkward around each other. Cancer. Cancer sucks. A lot.
Anyway, the band. Our manager has set up a tour starting in two months. We're going to North America. There's supposed to be a bunch of smaller cities we're going to. So this means that I actually have to start getting out of bed. I'll have to do the one thing I have been trying to avoid: Interact with people.
Its sounds like a shitty-ass comment, but seriously. All the fans are going to ask so many questions, they'll tell me to be happy or some shit and not be upset because I'm in a fucking band living a life that thousands want. Like mum told me. I love the fans to death, but, I'm just afraid. Afraid that they'll think bad of me, start hating me. That's one thing I don't want to happen. But I guess its bound to happen sometime.
They probably already hate me. Its been over a month since I've tweeted. I haven't seen any fans, I haven't singed anything, sang, even, in over a month. They probably wouldn't like to see me. I look like I've got hit by a truck, or something. I have bags beneath my eyes, I slouch, my head always hangs down, my eyes are bloodshot from the lack of sleep, and I have scars on my wrists. Isn't that the best way for people to look at you. Especially when they look up to you.
you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
-Welcome To My Life
Anyway, I loves you so much. Words cannot describe how much I miss you. How much I love you. And how much I care, so deeply about you.
Calum. xx
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Hey so uh, yeah. There isnt much to say, but yeahh. Have a good day, and such.
I lub chue all
G'day mates
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