Dear Jenny,
Hi, sweetie. Our first show of the tour starts tonight. We've been rehearsing and such. The guys are super pumped. I guess I am too. I mean, I love playing on stage in front of a crowd. Its the best thing ever. Its way better than standing in the crowd, and just that is the best feeling you could get.
The boys released Amnesia to the fans a few days ago. I guess they liked it. They all suspect that I wrote it about you, is what the guys told me. We're also playing it on the tour. I'm not exactly sure how I can take it, playing in front of thousands. I could barely play it at rehearsals. I had to 'take a wee'. I think the boys understood though. Most of the time when we played it, I did cry. And they want me to sing most of the parts. Can you believe that? The first couple times, I got chocked up. Think about it being played in front of thousands. Just wish me luck, would ya?
How is it up there? In heaven. I've heard its a beautiful place. Is that true? I just want to know if you're happy. If you're happier than you was with me. You're with your mum and grandma. Tell them I said hi. I hope you're safe, and you're healthy. Because god knows you had a fucked up time down here. But don't we all? Life is for challenges, accomplishing and failing goals. That's all it is, pretty much.
Maybe I'm not trying hard enough. You know how people try hard to quit an addiction, or try hard to even stay alive? Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough. Maybe I'm just not good enough. Yeah, that seems like it. I was never good enough for you, you deserved someone that was happy, and full of life. Not someone depressed and not worth it. You deserve the world. But the world doesn't deserve you. I hope you understand that. I hope you understand how much I love you. How much I still continue to love and care for you. I'm staying for you. I'm trying for you. I'm alive for you.
Feels like it's forever.
Seems like yesterday,
We were running 'round town together.
This place just ain't the same.
I miss the stormy weather,
I'm not okay.
-3000 Miles
Calum. xx
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A/N
Hey, ya'll. I hope everyone has a very merry christmas.
This year has been rough for many, and a lot of people has lost their lives. Here's to them, res in beautiful pieces.
Take this holiday to appreciate your family and friends, not the presents under the tree.
I love you, <3
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