Dear jenny,
Hey baby. You were my fucking sunshine. My whole entire world. You made the bad dreams go away, you made the light shine on the days were I could only find darkness. There was a reason why you had come into my life. But there wasn't a reason why you had to leave. Yes, you had cancer. Which is a douchey reason for taking someone away, cancer fucking sucks. But there's no logical reason. Only a literal reason. Life just sucks balls. And I hate it. I hate the world, I hate life, I hate how people feel the need to be so cruel about things.
My sleeping beauty has gone back to sleep, and there is no way to get her back. Maybe some years in the future, when my time comes, and I take a turn and I'm no longer alive, I'll see you. Maybe it won't be so far into the future. Maybe on some fucked up level, I die. And I'll be taken away, away from everyone I love.
Maybe, I'll be happy again.
You're just a daydream away.
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you.
And I'll keep you a daydream away.
Just watch from a safe place,
So I never have to lose.
-A Daydream Away
I wish I could do things over again. Just to hear your voice, again. Taste the sweet raspberry chap stick from your lips. Smell the beautiful, natural scent of you. To see all of your gorgeous curves, to hear your cute little giggle, and your smile. Everything. About. You. You are who I want, who I need. That I will never be able to have.
Calum. xx
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A/N
Hey so I changed my @ just because. "loads of Luke" bc clearly i am in love with Luke and there is loads of him in my mind.
LOTS of things have happened recently with the fandom, (the rolling stones magazine controversy) and honestly it probably wasn't a good idea to change my name now, (because everyone is going against luke) I couldn't care any less though. I've been here for a very long time, supporting these guys through everything, and I am not giving up now. yes, what Luke said was very wrong, but maybe the magazine could have been more direct on music and people could blaming the guys on this??
((and calum didnt do a darn thing except say a mere joke so yall can back off the little puppy pls))
Anyways, I hope I dont start a riot, and maybe yall enjoyed this chapter?
I love you all, and I hope you had a wonderful christmas!
YOU ARE READING
Jenny.
Fanfiction"How could you give someone so peaceful to the world, something so fucked up towards the world?" I ask 'god', thinking he could hear me. "She was one of the best things I had... And you took her away from me.. Just like that? What did I do? What di...
