"How could you give someone so peaceful to the world, something so fucked up towards the world?" I ask 'god', thinking he could hear me.
"She was one of the best things I had... And you took her away from me.. Just like that? What did I do? What did she even do, for Christ sakes?" I ask aloud, again.
"You could have taken anyone..But you decided on her.." I sigh.
"Calum, you've gotta stop doing that." Ashton says walking into my room.
"What?" I ask confused.
"You can't keep drowning yourself in thoughts, crying, making it worse. I know you loved her, everyone did. She was amazing. But she wanted you to move on, you've gotta listen to the girl." he says to me. I wipe my face off, not realizing I was crying until Ash pointed it out.
"I know, I know. Its just hard, I don't know why she would get cancer, out of all the fucked up people in the world.." I say.
"Anyone could get it. You know that. But if you love her, let her go."
"I'm trying..I really am." I say as I hug Ashton and cry on his shoulder.
"Its almost been a year."
"I know..Just let it out."
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Hey, so this is my new story. Continue on if you'd like. Its gets quite sad. IT MAY BE TRIGGERING. BECAUSE I CRIED WRITING IT. Also, its practically all journal entries. Just so ya know, because some people don't like it. But thank you all for giving me the time of day, I appreciate it more than you know.
Smile, its the best thing you can do.
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Jenny.
Fanfic"How could you give someone so peaceful to the world, something so fucked up towards the world?" I ask 'god', thinking he could hear me. "She was one of the best things I had... And you took her away from me.. Just like that? What did I do? What di...
