Dear Jenny,
Hi sweetie.
I went to meet some fans outside for the first time in over a month. Everyone gave me a hug. Like, usually they ask, but these weren't regular hugs..The comfort wasn't meant for them..It was like meant for me. I guess it'd make sense. I mean, I just lost the love of my life a month and two weeks ago.
There was this one girl, maybe sixteen, she was wearing a shirt that said "Jenny Brooks is still my role model. R.I.P." I seen it and I started to cry. I went straight to her, caught her off guard, and hugged her. I also whispered a 'thank you for the shirt, I appreciate it' in her ear. And she didn't act like some guy she adores in a band is hugging her, she acted like I was a normal person. Which, lately, I haven't gotten that. And not because of the fame, because of how I'm 'depressed'and 'mentally fucking wrong in the head'.
I used to love how, when I'd meet fans, they'd always ask how you were. They'd tell me something to tell you, or that we 'will be getting married one day', which I already planned, but yet, no one knows that. Still. But the way they looked up to you, made me love them, and you a hundred times more. Because they were my fans, but somehow, you took over. But you had been here from the start. You were our biggest fan. You were beautiful. You were kind, caring, loving, amazing, and everyone appreciated you. I appreciated you.
I also appreciated that little snort you always had when you thought something was extremely funny, yet no one else did. But just by hearing your laugh, or seeing you smile, everyone else would, too. Because you had that kind of effect. Just being in the room, made everyone in a better mood.
Anyway, I think I'm rambling..
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes,
they're all I can see
-ChasingCars
I'll love you forever and ever.
Calum. xx
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Yoooo. So its been literally forever since I've updated this. And I know i said id actually keep up with it, but obviously, I lied.
Yadee, yadee, yadee. Excuses, excuses. I know. But maybe I'll actually try and remember from now on. Btw, i make no promises.
But i have like ten chapters written out already, i just cant remember nuffin. Sooo. Have a lovely day yall.
sMiLe, I LoVe YoU. <3
(Oh, and whOS EXCITED FOR WARPED TOUR 2015??? I CANNOT WAIT)
That is all.
YOU ARE READING
Jenny.
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