Hey Sweetie,
I talked to my mom last night. There were lots of tears. I just continued to tell her how sorry I am and how I wanted to change myself. She told me repeatedly that she was so proud of what I've achieved even though the greatest part of me, the piece that kept me going, wasn't here anymore.
I feel like if I quit mourning you, it might actually seem like you are gone, and that is the last thing I want. But the first step in getting better is to quit being sad. So what am I supposed to do?
I haven't exactly spoken to the boys about anything this serious since we spoke about me going to therapy.
Maybe I should try that? Yeah, I'll do just that.
I want to thank you, for probably the thousandth time, for all that you ever did for me. You were always there for me, no matter what. You always knew what to do, so this is me trying to be better, trying to take your advice, to be a better person.
I love you more than life itself, but I think it might be time to let go.
I'm just a dreamer,
I dream my life away, oh yeah.
I'm just a dreamer,
Who dreams of better days.
-Dreamer
I am a dreamer, just dreaming of better days,
Calum. xx
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A/N
Hey, yall.
I hope you're enjoying this, and I hope you are enjoying your life because I bet you're bomb.
All The Love, xx
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Jenny.
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