The Way I Loved You-WTLGD2

Fix You

-Bailey's Sam Journal-

Day two without you...I'm not Ok...I could tell you that if you would answer my calls or texts. I can't stop crying, everything reminds me of you. My room even smells like you, a constant reminder that you were here and now you are gone. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I lied to you about Jake, I'm sorry for not being strong enough to simply ignore him when he started texting, I know now that is what I should have done. I'm sorry that it took me until now to realize that you are the only guy I ever want, I'm sorry that I made you feel like there was ever any contest for my heart...It has always been yours.

*Miley walks in B's room to find her curled up in bed writing, her breakfast sitting on the bedside table untouched*

(Miley) *sighs and sits next to B* you haven't even touched your breakfast

(Bailey) it's too early to eat

(Miley) it's four in the afternoon...you need to get up, you have been in bed all day...

(Bailey) where is Nick?

(Miley) JB stuff...He should be back in like an hour

(Bailey) Miles....

(Miley) yea?

(Bailey) you love Nick...

(Miley) I do

(Bailey) how do you love someone...but not want to be with that person

(Miley) *sighs* it's not like that B...

(Bailey) then how is it exactly?

(Miley) *lays down beside B and stares up at the ceiling* I love Nick...he gets me...but when I am in LA and I am missing him...I'm not missing the making out...not that it isn't fun...but I am missing things like just sitting with him on the couch and watching some stupid sports show that I could care less about and having him get all frustrated and yell at the tv and rub the back of his neck...or getting in to some stupid argument with him over why crunchberries cereal is the best cereal on the planet...

(Bailey) what is there to argue...that's fact

(Miley) exactly...

 (Bailey) but you can watch stupid sports and argue with him while you are dating too...

(Miley) see that's the thing, it's different when we are dating...the dynamic changes somehow and it frustrates me and we end up fighting. At least for right now, just being friends is better for us...

(Bailey) what does Nick think?

(Miley) He was upset, but we will be ok we just need to get back to normal. I leave to go on location for my movie in a few days, I will be on location for 3 months so that will give us time to get back to just being good friends...and then there is the whole Livie issue...

(Bailey) what do you mean? I thought he said you two had already broken up when he kissed her?

(Miley) yea, we had...but still, there was always this tension between them...even before we broke up...it sparked a couple of fights actually, and he always denied it so it was kind of hard to catch them kissing yesterday...but we aren't together now so he is free to kiss who he wants

(Bailey) it goes both ways...you are free to kiss whoever you want too...

(Miley) speaking of which... *hops up from the bed and grabs B's journal setting it on the bedside table* get up...go take a shower...

(Bailey) *groans* and just HOW was that a speaking of which?

(Miley) *shrugs* there was no good segway to tell you that you look like hell