The Way I Loved You-WTLGD2

You Leave, I Leave

Bailey’s Inner Monologue

It was early, I wasn’t tired, but going to bed seemed like a more favorable alternative to staying up and talking. I laid there in bed awake for hours, crying to myself and listening to Nick sit and write in his journal and strum on an acoustic.  I heard him get up and leave a couple of times for betes management …lows from what I can tell.  If we were on good speaking terms right now, he would probably be venting to me, but alas…we are not…and I am sleeping…sortof. I grew increasingly thirsty as the night dragged on, but out of pure stubbornness, I refused to get up and get a drink while Nick was still awake. It was nearly 1am before I rolled over and confirmed that Nick had passed out, in a rather uncomfortable looking position on the floor…that would certainly leave a kink in his neck come morning time. Slipping from bed, I made my way out of the room and down the stairs, grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge and taking a seat at the counter with a sigh. There sitting on the counter Miley’s purse caught my eye, reaching inside I pulled out the magnetic bellybutton ring she and Joe had purchased and admired its sparkle. Reaching back into the bag to search for candy, my fingers  grazed a credit card floating in the bottom of her purse, running my fingers over the grooves I bit my lip before sliding the card into my pocket and walking quietly into my room. I pulled my duffel bag from my closet and quickly started to fill it with essentials.

 (Nick)  *sleepy voice* What are you doing?

(Bailey) Nothing, go back to sleep

 (Nick) Where are you going?

(Bailey) like you care

(Nick) B, you are acting ridiculous. You can’t run away.

(Bailey) Really, Nick? I’m acting ridiculous? Excuse me if I’m not good at hiding how I feel like you

(Nick) What is that supposed to mean?

(Bailey) It means that you have perfected the art of faking…you constantly have to pretend that you are happy and feeling great and *air quotes* ‘blessed’ when in reality D is kicking your ass and you feel like shit…you are great at suffering in silence but I can’t do that. Me leaving makes everyone happy.

(Nick) Bailey...

(Bailey) No...I’m done, Nick. *walks back into the bathroom and shuts the door behind her*

Bailey's Inner Monologue

I think Mr. Nick Jonas might be bi-polar. He is so flippin' hot and cold that his mood swings are giving me a headache.

*B walks out of the bathroom to find Nick standing there with his duffel bag in hand

(Bailey) *sighs* What are you doing?

(Nick) You leave, I leave

(Bailey) *rolls eyes* I’m fairly certain mom’s rule doesn’t apply to running away…I’m sure this is another one of those exceptions

(Nick) I’m not going because of Mom’s rule…if you leave, I am coming with you

(Bailey) Well, you aren’t invited

(Nick) You should have thought of that 15 years ago…I’m kind of attached at this point, so you are stuck with me

(Bailey) *frustrated sigh* Nick…

(Nick) *mimics Bailey’s sigh* Bailey…

(Bailey) Why now? Why now do you suddenly care?

(Nick)  Suddenly care??

(Bailey) I waited in the treehouse for hours waiting for you to come and get me, and you never showed…You didn’t want me home

(Nick) *sighs and rubs the back of his neck* You are right...I put up with a lot of your crap, I’m constantly lying to Mom and Dad to cover your ass, I have always been there for you…I was pissed off because you didn’t even give me the benefit of the doubt before you came storming into my room accusing me of narking you out to Joe …I constantly stick my neck out on the line for you and you were so quick to assume that I sold you out…that hurt. I’ve never given you a reason not to trust me

(Bailey) *tears in eyes* I know you haven’t…I just…I panicked. After Joe found out, I knew  it was only a matter of time before Mom and Dad knew and I’d be dead…You were the only one I had told so I just assumed and I shouldn’t have …I’m sorry. I realize I’ve taken our relationship for granted …I just thought that you would always have my back…until you didn’t….which just felt awful.

(Nick) You aren’t the only one who kinda took the twin thing for granted…until you pointed it out I never realized just how much of the betes crap you deal with…you are always there for me when I’m struggling or being an ass. I spent the last few hours dropping into lows that I couldn’t shake, and I didn’t have anyone to talk to…it sucked.

(Bailey) *sighs* Nick . . .

(Nick) *shakes head* I hate that I can’t hate you sometimes…all it does is end up punishing me as well…I have not frickin slept since this shit began.

(Bailey) so…we promise that we will stop taking each other for granted...'cause we agree we both need eachother and we totally suck ass at functioning otherwise *holds up pinkie*

(Nick) *smirks* you sure you want to do that? I told you what that means…

(Bailey) *juts her pinkie toward Nick* I’m sure

*Nick nods and hooks his pinkie with B before pulling her into a hug*

(Bailey) *nuzzles into Nick’s shoulder with a sigh* I love you

(Nick) I love you too. Can we not run away now…those lows kicked my butt, I’m sleepy

*B giggles. Grabbing Nick’s bag from his hand, she tosses it on the floor before pushing him over to the bed, quickly resuming her spot on his shoulder as he lays down*

Chapter End Notes:

Bout friggin time those two made up...it makes me downright uncomfortable when they aren't getting along.