Complicated

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After I'd had my shower I walked over to Stiles's room and peeked through the window. He was still asleep, in the same position I had left him in. I sighed heavily and turned to leave.
As I rounded the corner I bumped straight into Barry. Who I had been trying to avoid.
"Oh god, I'm sorry." He said holding on to my arm so I didn't fall.
I steadied and stepped back.
"No your fine, I just wasn't looking." I told him.
There was an awkward pause.
"So what are you doing over here?" He asked picking up the lid to the water bottle he'd dropped.
"Oh, uh, just checking up on Stiles before I go to bed." I told him.
He nodded.
I stepped forward to leave and he grabbed my arm.
"Hey can we talk for a second, our last conversation got cut off by your werewolf friend's tantrum." He said.
I chucked at the memory.
"Yeah, sure." I replied
"So am I the only one who got a certain vibe that Caitlyn is crushing on Derek." He asked.
I laughed.
"I think it was pretty obvious." I said.

After a few minutes of small talk he sighed heavily.
"I gotta ask." He started.
Oh god, I thought to myself
"How did it feel? I know Cisco or Caitlyn probably already asked you but I- I just wanna hear it from you." He finished.
I sighed heavily before letting my gaze rest on his.
"You don't wanna talk about it do you?"
He asked.
I opened my mouth but he answered for me.
"It's fine that was too personal I shouldn't have asked." He said straightening.
I inhaled deeply before speaking.
"It's not that." I told him.
He looked up.
"Its just- I don't even know how to put it in words." I told him.
He nodded understandingly, smiled softly and turned to leave.
I wasn't gonna let him walk out like that. Maybe it was because deep down I really liked him, or maybe it was because I just hated leaving things awkward. I squeezed my eyes shut, knowing I was making a mistake
"It's painful." I spoke hurriedly.
I heard him turn around.
"When you are bitten, your body either rejects it or accepts the bite." I started.
"Mine did both." I told him.
He stared at me clearly confused.
"Nobody knows how it happened, and it's never happened before." I continued.
"Half my cells accepted the bite, and the other half didn't. My skin cells being the main ones who didn't. So yes, I have claws and my face 'changes' but it's excruciatingly painful. And my white blood cells were another main group of cells that rejected it. That's why I don't heal unless another wolf starts the process."
"Wow, I-I didn't know. How that even possible?" He asked, the confusion was evident in his tone.
I shrugged.
"I told you, I have no idea." I answered.
"I'm so sorry." He said.
"Nothing you could've done, don't be sorry." I told him.
He stared at me, clearly unconvinced.
I gave him the best smile I could muster at the moment. I probably looked constipated but it was all I could do to not have a breakdown. I mean, I'd never talked about this before with anyone other than Derek. And we only did once when it first happened.
He came a little closer.
Oh god. If he hugs me I'm gonna cry. And this is already getting too dramatic for me
He returned my constipated smile with a sad one.
Okay Barry that's close enough.
I could feel the tears brewing.
Oh my god. I'm actually gonna cry! I'm such a wimp! This could be worse. You could be Jennifer Aniston and have Brad Pitt leave you for Angelina Jolie.'
That joke always seemed to make me dry it up real quick. But all of a sudden it wasn't working.
The moment I felt his arms around me I squeezed my eyes shut in one last attempt to stop the Niagara Falls. But he was warm and I couldn't tell you how long it had been since I'd had a meaningful hug. So I let it happen.
After a moment I spoke.
"I think I'm gonna go to bed." I said fighting to keep my voice light and balanced.
"Alright Kels, If you need me just call." He said. Rubbing the sides of my arms. I nodded, keeping my head down before I turned and walked away, not looking up until I knew he couldn't see me. Kels, nobody had called me that since I was little.

Once I had made it to my room I shut the door and let the tears fall silently. If Derek or Scott heard they would come in here. And that's the last thing I wanted.
But of course I'd spoken too soon.
"You told him!" Derek said barging in. I turned away quickly.
"Kelsey what didn't you understand about the 'don't tell anyone speech?" He asked.
"You don't know who could be listening!" He hissed.
"Hey!" He said pulling my shoulder back and turning me toward him since I wouldn't answered him.
His 'angry face' fell when he saw my 'crying' one.
"What happened? Did he hurt you?" He asked. I clenched my teeth angrily.
"No." I told him.
"Did he insult you?" He asked.
"No." I replied.
Derek furrowed his brow.
"I'm confused. Why are you crying?" He asked.
"I don't want to talk about it at all with you." I hissed glancing at the half open door.
"Well Scotts asleep and everybody else went home. So it looks like you're stuck with me." He said.
I sighed heavily.
"I just wanna go to bed. It's been a long day." I breathed.
Derek nodded slowly but didn't move.
"Alone" I told him.
"Fine." Derek said hastily before leaving.

A/N: sorry for the long wait, I love you guys