Leaving the house at 4am became a regular thing, seeing I never wanted to see the family I was living with. Without my brother there, something was missing, seeing I hadn't seen him in months.
I visited the Crest often now, just to think about my life and the uncertainty about the disappearance of Kyle.
I grew worried, never knowing what day Kyle might show up. I had high hopes everyday of him returning, but just like everyday, he never did.
I barely slept now, getting up at midnight to examine myself in the mirror. Was it because of me? Why did Kyle just leave my mom and Hail? I know Kyle, and that's not him. He would never ever think about doing that.
But I continued blaming myself for his absence.
It was because of stupid me. Stupid me. All the attention was on me. When I got swooped into a stupid coma. He left because he thought I was gone. And I made everyone believe that.
It all refers back to those months. Those months of my life that just made me believe everyone was a liar. Those months of my life where I decided I'd starve myself for the better. That breathing would actually make a difference in my weight.
You could say my life patterns are forever ruined because in every way they are. There is a mirror in the hall that always reminds me I'm always gonna be that stupid, fat, Montana Hyland that will always ruin people's lives. It reminds me that I'll never be perfect.
I am the very farthest from it.
But it always refers back to those months where I started actually believing it. Yeah, that's because my best friend made me believe it. Every word she spat from her mouth. I believed it.
But I'm not talking about Hailey.
I'm talking about River Deer.
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