Part 25
Cheryl's Point of View
The girls knew. We still hadn't talked. Nothing was getting better. I was a mess. All I wanted to do was hold her in my arms, but I couldn't. She wouldn't let me even if I tried.
Today was going to be a hard day. We were performing near Kimberley's home town, all her family were coming out to watch, and I knew that meant that they would come and say hello. Even though they didn't know about what happened between the two of us, I felt uncomfortable knowing that I would be in the same room as them. What would they think if they knew the truth? If they knew what I had done to hurt their Kimberley? Her family were very protective of her, and I knew they wouldn't like it one bit.
Rehearsals on the stage had finished earlier than usual today. Kimberley wanted to see her family before the show and because everyone was happy enough with the routines, they let her go. To be honest, I think they would let her go anyway. It was obvious she needed space and to spend time with her family. Thinking about her with her family, made me think about my own. I had seen them a week ago, but I was missing them so much. Usually, I would be able to get through it without them, but now Kimberley wasn't talking to me and the other girls felt like they were treading on egg shells around us, I felt as if I had nobody.
“You okay, Chez?” I looked up to see Nadine smiling at me. She sat down next to me, placing her arm around my shoulder for comfort.
“I'm fine, Nads.”
“No you're not.”
“I know.”
“So why did you lie?” She asked. “We want to help you, Chez, but for us to do that, you need to talk to us. We can't help you if you don't.”
“I'm sorry Nadine.”
“It's okay. So, how are you feeling?”
“I don't know.” I shrugged. “Numb, empty... alone. Rejected.”
“Aw, babe. Things will get better.”
“How will they?” I snapped. I was sick of everyone saying they would get better. How were they going to get better? Was Kimberley just going to forgive me or were we going to go back in time so I could make the right decision? What was going to happen that was going to make everything better? Nothing was going to be better until I had Kimberley, in my arms, all to myself.
I looked at Nadine, she was hurt that I had turned on her. It wasn't her fault. I didn't mean to. “Nadine, I'm sorry.” I apologised. “I didn't mean for it to come out like that. Everyone keeps saying it's going to get better, but it hasn't yet. When will it get better Nadine, when?”
“I don't know hunny.” She sighed, kissing the top of my head. “I really don't know. Have you tried talking to her?”
“No,” I shook my head. “I don't know what to say to her...”
Nicola and Sarah sat down beside us, they didn't say anything though. They just sat and listened. I didn't mind though, the girls were like my sisters. If I was going to tell one of them something, I may as well tell the rest. I have nothing to hide. Nicola rested her head on my shoulder, comforting me, it worked. I loved having her next to me, she was my little sister. She was one of the few people I felt completely safe with.
“The two of you need to talk, and you both know that.” Nadine eventually said.
“I know, but it's hard.” I sighed.
“How is it?” Sarah chipped in. “You've been able to talk for years. You know, you open your mouth, move it around and words come out. It's simple really.”
“Sarah, shut up!” Nicola warned, hitting her arm before turning back to me. “How is it hard?”
“Well, it's like a first crush again.” I admitted, cringing at my own words. “You know, when you get nervous from just being around them, and when they look at you, you think you might melt under their gaze. I just don't think I can talk to her, she does crazy things to us, I can't explain. She's just so... Kimberley.”
“Aw babe, you've got it bad!” Nadine giggled.
“Got what bad?” I asked confused.
“The love bug.”
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We were all back stage getting ready for the show. Kimberley and Sarah were over in the corner talking about something, she obviously didn't want to be near me. I felt sorry for the girls though, they were torn between the two of us. Luckily, Kimberley and I hadn't made the fight turn stupid and we weren't making them choose sides.
I watched as Sarah walked away from Kimberley and went over to Nadine and Nicola, grabbing them by the arms. She dragged them over in my direction, stopping in front of me.
“Cheryl, we've been thinking about what you said earlier...” Nicola started with a grin. “And me and the girls have come up with a plan...”
“A plan for what?” I asked, not catching on to what they were going on about.
“A plan for you to get Kimberley back.” She pulled me in closer to her and started whispering in my ear...
