My Heart

8. Rough

"Relax Mila. I'm willing to wait a thousand years for you. Let me know when you think you're ready, and if you suddenly change your mind, it's fine. I'll do whatever you want, and I'm going to do everything I can to avoid hurting you," he told me, making me safer about my decision.

"Good, because I was thinking we could might try something tonight?" I hesitated, and laid down next to him on the bed. It took a moment before he could answer.

"What were you thinking?" he asked, pulling me closer.

"I don't know, really. You're the one that knows all of this," giggled.

"Just. Just kiss me" I concluded, and he hurried leaning over me to kiss me. He supported his body on his elbow, that was placed close to my head.

"If I start this, will you promise me you say stop when you don't want to go on any longer?" he asked me.

"Mhm" I quickly replied.

"I'm serious Camila. Do you promise me you stop me when you don't want me to continue?" he asked strictly,

"Yes, Calum. I promise I'll stop you" I assured him, looking him deeply in the eyes.

"Good, I'm just going to get rid of this tight shirt," he complained and sat up properly, to pull his shirt over his head before tossing it on the floor.

I sat up to, and straddled his lap, making him lay back down.

"Is it okay if I take my shirt off too?" I asked unsure.

"Yes! Please show me your beautiful body, babe" he begged.

"Good morning my 'not so virgin anymore' princess" Calum said when he managed to wake me up. I giggled.

"Morning handsome" I smiled, and wanted him to kiss me.

"You're amazing in every single way, do you know that?" he asked, looking at my face.

"Thanks, so are you Mr. Hood! I didn't know it would be like that. At all!" I complimented him.

"I'm just looking forward to experiment stuff with you," he smiled, and finally kissed me.

"If you want to, of course" Calum quickly added, making both of us giggle.

"Please tell me you're not going to be that careful forever? My friends say that the boys begin to decide more after the first couple of times," I asked.

"Yeah, I mean, when we're getting used to this, I'll start craving a bit more, I guess, but not yet. The most important thing to me right now, is that you are okay, alright?" he asked me, assuring.

"I want you rough," I admitted, feeling really embarrassed afterwards.

"I think I need to make you get used to this one quite fast, sweetheart, because if you're going to continue making me feel this way every morning, I'll have to do some changes," he said in a hushed voice, making me excited about what's coming next.

"Breakfast to you if you've got the time," mum said through my bedroom door. We were dressed, even showered and were just laying down watching telly when she interrupted. We got down quickly, and sat by the table. This was the best Christmas Eve n my entire life, I already knew it. Dad had made his delicious pancakes, which he knew I loved more than a lot, and I was sharing it all with Calum.

"Now, how was it?" mum asked, before I even got to start eating. 

"How was what? I haven't even started eating yet, mum," I said, sighing smilingly at her.

"You both know what I'm talking about" she hinted, making me get nervous. What?

"What?" I repeated from my thoughts. Calum caressed my foot with his, as to say, it's okay, just say it. Mum was just smiling.

"How did you even know?" I asked, not sure if I should be mad or not.

"It's not hard to guess," she hinted, and I realized she was probably right.

"Um, okay" I tried to finish the theme, blushing like mad, but not managing to shut my mother up.

"You used protection, right?" she then asked, Calum nodding, a bit less of a grin on his face now. He seemed proud, yet here I was more embarrassed than ever.

"Wow, this is weird. I haven't spoken to anyone over twenty about my sexlife before, yet here I am, telling it to my girlfriends parents" Calum realized. Was I the only one being slightly uncomfortable with all of this?

"Yeah, you must trust us, right?" dad smiled at Calum, which answered an obvious yes.

"Alright, that's enough" I smiled. It was a bit funny, though.

"Aw, come on, honey. Is it that bad? Don't you think your mum and dad cares?" she asked me.

"Of course you care, it's just that you don't have to know everything," I laughed, still meaning what I said though.

"Yes we do" mum teased.

"Alright, Calum's dick is bigger than dad's" I joked, yet everyone got silent. That was clearly not okay, I figured.

"What?" mum asked, and I knew I had to make a way out of this.