Broken hearts

Chapter 11

      Hey! Hey! Slow down! I heard Jayson say as he was trying to catch up with me. I was walking so fast not knowing where i was going. I had no cab number to call, i just wanted to clear my head, I didn't know when i started crying. Rayshawn probably didn't like me anymore cos he either taught i was lying or he was mad that I snitched on his friend. And the idiotic fool was here following me.

        "What do you want?" Have i not given you enough? I kept your secret, even when you almost killed me in school I didn't tell anybody, i lied to make myself look stupid in the presence of your friend and you're still following me. What else do you want? MY BLOOD?

          I didn't notice when tears started flowing down my cheeks.  Please I'm begging you, just let me be. Please!
He stood there looking at me, I couldn't even look at him. It was like i was allergic to him.

    Why did you do that? Why did you cover up for me? I mean you don't know me, why didn't you just spill it out? I'm just curious.

          Wait hold on. If i spilled it you would just continue to torture me, and now I didn't you are complaining, like what exactly do you want?
He looked embarrassed, he probably didn't expect me to reply in the tone i used. He was rubbing his hair and his feet was imbalanced.

    I uhm.... I ju... Ehm
        I hissed and walked out. Suddenly Rayshawn pulled up in front of me. "Get in, I'll drop you home".
No thanks! I can find my way.
   He came down from his car, opened the front door and dragged me in, he looked at Jayson fiercely and drove off.

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     {Rayshawn's   P.O.V}
It was just like Tasha resurrected. She reminded me so much of Tasha. When i hugged her I couldn't even let go. I don't know if it was my nose but she smelled like Tasha. She didn't even look like her but she just reminded me of Tasha. And the more i thought about it the more i wanted to protect her.

         Tasha was my first love. I knew her since we were in our mothers wombs. We were more like siblings. She died just before we graduated from middle school. She was asthmatic and because of that her parents didn't want her to go to private school. They wanted her to be close to their watch. And also because of that, I didn't go to a private school. I wanted to protect her. She didn't know i had feelings for her until we were in 8th grade.
      
          We were both bullied in school. I always tried as much as i could to protect her but i was useless. I got beat up in front of her each time i tried. One time on our way back from school in the school bus. We both got beat up on the bus. The bus driver couldn't separate it.  I was bleeding out and Tasha couldn't breathe. I struggled up and tried to press the alarm. Tasha was almost unconscious. Immediately i pushed the button the cops pulled up. I was too weak to know what was going on. Next i was in an ambulance with Tasha. I looked at her and her face was so beautiful. It had never been so beautiful. She was in so much pain. They put so many tubes in her mouth. After some treatment i was better, all i was interested in was seeing Tasha. My parents and her parents had now arrived at the hospital. The doctor said she had to go in for an emergency surgery. Her lungs were blocked. Her parents were panicking. I told them what happened and they went mad at me. They kept on shouting and asking why we never told them we were bullied. I actually wanted to tell them but Tasha begged me not to. After the surgery she was awake for two days. I went to see her. She looked pale. I was crying. She only laughed at me for being a cry baby and promised me that she was going to be totally fine. I looked at her and kissed her. That was my first kiss. Her lips were the best. She was surprised at first and when i tried to stop she only grabbed my lips with hers and kissed me back. I felt her tears on my face. She was in pain. Only for the next day, the doctor announced that she gave up. My whole life was messed up. Her parents sued the school and made so much money from it but that couldn't bring their daughter back. Her parents never talked to me again. They probably hated me. I was messed up for a year and i promised myself to be stronger. To never be trampled upon again.

     When i watched Shontaeya being beat up by Jayson. It was like it was Tasha. I have to protect Shontaeya.

     {Jaysons P.O.V}
She was different. There was just something about her I couldn't explain.
When i looked at her eyes for even a second i felt numb. I never felt like this before the incident. Maybe it was just pity. Seeing Rayshawn drive her home made me so mad. When she asked me what exactly i wanted for a second i was going to say "i want you" but damn how could i even think like that. I barely knew her and I didn't like her. Thank God I didn't say anything. I can't be soft. NEVER! But still i keep on wondering why she covered up for me. I was following her to apologize but I can't apologize to anyone. I actually appreciated what she did. Even though I'm like a monster to her. She can't even look at me. Lawd was i this bad?