Sparks Fly [Completed]

16. The morning after

slowly fingers trailed up and down my naked hip waking me up. It took a while to realize how I got naked and who was behind me. It wasn't Andrew.
"You know I wish every day I could turn back time" Seth's voice whispered behind me. I didn't move. Maybe he thought I was still asleep and was just talking to himself.
His hand moved towards my waist where it stayed still. My head was leaning on his other arm and my back was warm against his muscular chest.
"I blame myself for all this" He continued softly. I felt his lips kiss my shoulder and I smiled a little. I had to enjoy this moment while it lasted because I knew it wouldn't last.
"I wish you were mine every day" He kissed my neck and his scruffy beard thing tickled me making me squirm.
"Good morning gorgeous" He kissed me some more and I turned around to him.
His smile was the best thing to wake up too. He looked at me like I was the most gorgeous thing on earth. "Hey" I whispered a little hoarse.
He kisses the tip of my nose and trails his fingers along the side of my face.
"What time is it?" I ask closing my eyes just taking in his touches.

I had completely lost track of time since he kissed me in the hallway. We didn't just kiss. Oh hell no we didn't. I knew I shouldn't do it. I knew I would never be able to take it back but I just decided to ignore all my objections. I had only been with one man ever and he had always been kind of rough, demanding, teasing and always it was he who had be satisfied in the first place. I didn't know any better and I used to like it.
Until now.
Seth only seemed to care about me and was so gentle and still knew exactly how to touch the right spot to drive me completely crazy. At the same time he was careful because I still had a concussion but I could handle it.
To be honest... we ended up having sex several times. It felt like we were a couple who just fell in love with each other and couldn't keep their hands of off each other.

"It's four in the morning" Seth grinned carefully pulling me closer to him. hiding his face in my long and really messy hair. "You are up early" I murmured and let out a soft moan when he started kissing my shoulders and neck. "I don't think I slept at all" He admitted moving his kisses towards my breasts.
He was getting ready for a new round and I would be there pretty soon too. I was a little stubborn though, I wanted to know more about what he had just said.
"Why?" I gently pushed him of me just before he would push me over the edge and make me forget about my questions.

"I wanted to look at you" He admitted with some kind of boyish grin on his face.
"Creep" I told him raising my eyebrows. It was creepy and at the same time seriously adorable.
"Why?" Was my next question.
"Because I never thought this would happen" He bit his lip looking incredibly sexy. Next all of a sudden he seemed insecure and kind of sad even.
"Can I be really honest to you?" He asked me taking my hand and intertwining his fingers with mine. He pulled my hand to his lips and kissed it carefully.
"Yeah" I whispered with a slightly shaking voice. I don't know why I was scared all of a sudden. Maybe some part of me thought this had all been one big trick to get me to cheat on Andrew so he could kick me out.

"I have been in love with you since the moment you started at our school"
He kissed my hand again and even looked a little scared after this confession.
My jaw dropped and my fear made place for utter astonishment.
"Your joking" I said letting go of his hand and sitting up. I stared at the wall not able to look at Seth. "That's a lie. You didn't even like me!" I said and gazed over at him for a second. This all was too weird. It all started to feel like one big joke. Like he played me.
"I did" He disagreed sitting up too. I covered myself with the sheets. I felt really naked all of a sudden.

"Just hear me out Emily, Please" He begged me trying to touch me. I even flinched and moved away making him look hurt.
"Yeah... And now you thought... hey whatever let's ruin her marriage while I am back for a while." I snapped at him.
"No!" He responded sounding angry. "No I would never! I just... hear me out okay... Promise me you will listen!"
I didn't look at him but I did nod a little.

"Back in school you showed up suddenly. Scared of everybody and shy as hell. Until Taylor befriended you in school and you joined our group. I had always thought you were gorgeous but I wasn't the most confident guy myself. I told myself time after time I would ask you out. I even told Andrew I would at one stage. The next day he did and you started dating."
I glanced to the side to see this devastated look on Seth's face.
"He never treated you like you deserved but I was to scared to say anything. There was only one person who knew. She has called me out on it several times and still does."
I knew right away who he meant. This made me feel even more betrayed then before. I pulled up my knees and wrapped my arms around my legs.
"It was Taylor wasn't it?" I whispered. Tears slowly made their way running down my cheeks. It was like there had been this whole thing going on behind my back.
"Did she tell you... to fuck me. To get me to cheat?" I hissed angrily.

"Emily! No! Please! It's not like that. It's not about sex." Seth was sounding pretty desperate now and moved to sit behind me and wrapped his arms around me. "I Love you! I loved you back in school and when I saw you say yes to Andrew. I would have loved you if you said no yesterday. I will always love you"
His face leaned gently on my shoulder and I closed my eyes. His arms felt so good around me and his confession of loving me moved me. They scared me at the same time. I couldn't say it back. I was married. To one of his best friends. Then I realized what he said. That Andrew asked me out after Seth had said that he had a thing for me. That is a horrible thing to do.

"Why didn't you say something... Back in school" I asked in a soft whisper leaning my head against his. "I always thought you didn't like me"
"I had no idea how to behave around you. I knew you were in foster care... My mother told me because she knew the family who took you in. She always said she felt sorry for you knowing you wouldn't get to much love. She told Taylor to get to know you"

All these confessions were a lot to take in. Taylor had a lot to do with the whole story. Now I remembered her telling me Seth didn't dislike me. I even remembered that smile she had. "Taylor knew you liked me did she not" I asked.
I felt Seth nod. "She did, I made her promise not to tell anything."

We were silent for a long time. I had no idea what I could say. I was still processing all I had just heard. "I'm sorry Em" Seth whispered in my hair and kissed the tip of my ear.
"It's okay" I muttered Like automatic I turned my head towards him to meet his lips. His hands slid under the covers and started to move along my naked body as we kissed. Maybe I should be angry, maybe I shouldn't let him again. It was just... I don't know I couldn't hold back around him.
When he touched the sides of my breast I moaned against his lips.
Both his hands wrapped around my stomach to pull me closer to his warm and naked chest. "You are the only one I will ever want" He whispered hoarsely turning me towards him dropping back on the bed.