Sparks Fly [Completed]

30. Small kicks

My days were made up of so many ups and downs I sometimes wondered who the real me actually was. I could be so happy and giddy being with Seth, he was busy with work between 9 and 5 but when he was done he spend all of his time with me. I was the best me with him. I felt happy, relaxed, in love. It almost was like we were teens again. Stupid teens who were madly in love.
My worst was at night when he was sleeping or when he was working. I started doubting everything and especially how the hell I could ever be a good mother. I never had a good mother, I had nobody to show me how to be a good mother. I didn't even have anybody to talk to about being pregnant. I was to insecure to ask. Seth did ask he mom to come over when my due date would come. She really wanted to help me and called me every day. I just had a really hard time letting her in.

The evening before the court day I laid on the couch with a small bowl with grapes on my bulging tummy. I never thought being pregnant could feel this weird. I could swear I could feel the little munchkin move sometimes. I was about halve way through my pregnancy now.
Foot steppes echoed through the hall meaning Seth was done with work.
"He sweetheart, how are you?" He kneeled down next to the couch and kissed my cheek.
"Alright" I muttered starring at my tummy. I put the grapes aside and pulled up my shirt. "Feel... There" I told him pointing at the side of my tummy.
He frowned a little, he knew just as much about pregnancy as me... Which was nothing. Of Course I read books but that was nothing like the real stuff.

Seth put his hand where I told him and opened his mouth to ask what was going on when he felt it. "Shit" he murmured making me grin. "Not in front of the baby" I told him making him laugh.
"Sure, but really. This is weird."
I nodded in agreement. "It is, I have been feeling it before but not as strong as now. Munchkin is getting strong. Like daddy" I looked at Seth who was beaming at me. "And mommy!" He told me.
I wasn't all to sure about that but I was nog going to ruin this moment.
He put his attention back to my tummy and the little munchkin in it and bend closer to it. "Don't let her tell you anything different. Mommy is very strong! And we love you very very much!" He knew I didn't see myself as strong... He thought me to be the strongest person alive and did everything to help me believe that.
After kissing my belly multiple times he got up and pulled me to my feet and into his arms. "You have to tell me every time she does that!" He told me making me laugh. "I would have to wake you up at night and drop into you office way to often." He shrugged. "I don't care. I love it... Its creepy though. How does it feel for you?"
I shrugged to wrapping my arms around his neck "weird" I admitted. "And really nice too. It's like I am never alone"
He grinned "You know you look so cute with that little belly" he turned me around with my back against his chest so that he could put his hands on my belly.
"Really?" I asked "You know I will go huge right?" I know it was for a good cause getting big and all but what I he didn't like me anymore when I did. This belly was cute yes... In ten weeks it would maybe get twice as big.
"You will still be adorable" he said kissing my neck.

I sighed, there was no point in arguing with him on this. We had this conversation before and lets say... He wouldn't even let me win for the sake of it.
"I love you... And our little munchkin" Seth told me kissing my neck again making me giggle.
I suddenly stopped giggling and stiffened, "but what if it's not yours"
I wanted to kick myself... Of Course it was his! It was just that people made some nasty comments and Andrews mothers words still kept me up at night.
Seth just shrugged. "Don't really care. Its not like I will let his family or him get their hands on it. I have some good friends who know enough about custody battles. He will never be able to come near our little munchkin!"

He made me smile, he really couldn't care less. That made me feel much better. The bell rang and after one more kiss he let go of me. I will open up. You go and see what you want for diner" he told me with a smile.
"I am cooking!" I told him. I had already made a plan for diner. He could do pancakes yes... That was about it. For the rest he fed on take out and ready made food. I was done with that.

Seth chuckled. "Alright gorgeous" he walked up to the door and me to the kitchen. I was just getting the pans when a loud bang almost deafened me... It was like the sound of a gun being fired.