Sparks Fly [Completed]

29. Frustrations

Andrews mother raised her eyebrows. "My son was ecstatic with that baby" she told me making me laugh. It was a bitter laugh. "Yes so happy he threw me to the floor and kicked me so hard he broke my hand trying to get me to miscarriage... Really happy!" I yelled at her.
Becky turned pale, Andrews mother shook her head. "I know what happened Emily... You are just trying to turn my son into the bad guy trying to hide your own abuse of drugs and the wish to get rid of that baby"
I couldn't believe her, she was the one who kept giving me pills! I was so done with this.
"Sure... If that makes you sleep better at night... Just keep telling yourself just that!" I fumed. Got that woman was so stupid... Or maybe just as horrible as her son. Maybe for them it was normal to hurt each other in their family.

"I think we should go mom" Taylor said looking at me with such proud on het face. I wasn't proud, just disgusted, furious and exhausted. We said goodbye to Taylors mother who was also red with anger. "I will tell them to leave the store no worries child" she whispered in my ear. I didn't really answer to that. I just thanked her for the blanket and left the store with Taylor.

"Well that was the last time I was outside" I stated to Taylor who followed me into Seth's house.
"But you were amazing!" She said with a grin. "So amazing... No Taylor, that was horrible and I am not doing that ever again!" I yelled. My hormones clearly had a hold of me right now because I didn't usually yelled like this.
Taylor sighed "Whatever Em, I thought it was Awesome. I do have to go now... Please calm down... For the babies sake"
She hugged me and left the house having me standing in the hall way still heavily breathing. I had no idea what I wanted to do now... Throw with stuff, cry, scream, hit something or somebody....

"Since when do you get worked up like this?" Seth showed up on top of the stairs looking pretty calm. It anoyed me right away.
"Since I am never going outside!" I snapped stomping away to the kitchen. I was hungry suddenly and was in a desperate need of food.
I heard him coming of the stairs and following me to the kitchen.
"What happened?" He asked keeping a safe distance while I kind of roughly made myself a peanut-butter jelly sandwich.
"That bitch who is Andrews mother happened. Telling me I was lying! And Becky totally taking Andrews side."
It hurt pretty bad waving one of my old friends doing that. Now to think of it... I didn't hear from most of my old friend... They were probably all on his side.
"Sweetheart, you will have to go out at some stage. I know it sucks now but..."
"No! I am not going anywhere! Fuck of Seth! You don't know how this feels!" With those words I threw the sandwich at his head. He ducked away looking pretty surprised.

I gasped realizing what I just did and backed away "Shit... Sorry I didn't mean to do that... I just" part of me knew there was no reason to be scared now but the other didn't and I was almost ready to run, especially when Seth came towards me.
When I backed away even more he stopped "Em" he said sounding a little shocked. "You... You know I would never hurt you right... I would let you hit me a black eye if it would make you feel better. I know you are scared... I know I have no idea what you are going through but... But you can't just run and hide. It wont help. It will in  probably only make it worse"
I couldn't look at him. I knew he was right. So I just starred at my baby bump and put my hands on it. "I have to keep her safe" I muttered. I had no idea why I said her. I had no idea if it was a she or he. Seth called it munchkin usually.
"Of Course" Seth's feet cam into view and he put one of his hands on top of mine. With the other he raised my chin to make me look at him.
"But we do not want to teach her to be scared right?" He said looking at me with a smile. "We want to teach her to be strong, and caring and teach her love and that she is loved" he kissed me carefully. "Just like you have to learn how it is to be loved... Really loved... Not just... I have no Idea what that ass thought he was doing but that wasn't love Em"
I swallowed... Now I was ready to cry again.

"Its alright if you want to cry" Seth whispered. "Or scream, or throw sandwiches at me. You just have to know that I will still love you! Always have and always will!" He pulled me close and wrapped his arms tightly around me. "And I will never treat you the way he did"
Tears started to make their way down my cheeks now. I couldn't say anything because I had no idea what to say. I wondered what I did to make him love me like this...

"I love you" I whispered with my face pressed against his chest. He leaned back a little. He didn't hear what I said... Making it kinda weird to say it again. He had said it ages ago... Told me every day and I never managed to say it back. So now I did... My face turned a little red.
"I love you" I said with an insecure smile on my face.
He beamed at me actually hearing what I said. "Sorry?"
Now he was pretending he didn't hear me making me wonder about the first time.
I pursed my lips. "You heard me" I muttered.
"I did.... I did the first time. I just love hearing you say it" he lifted me up on the counter and kissed me whispering "I love you too Gorgeous... " he leaned back a little looking at me. I could swear I saw tears glistening in his eyes " So damn much Emily! You have no idea how long I waited for those words"

I wrapped my arms around his neck and grinned "I love you" I whispered again. The smile he gave me was the best thing ever!