What Have You Done To Me?

Cas's P.O.V.

I landed in the woods near a clearing and watched as Sarah stepped out to talk to the girl, or whatever she was. The girls eyes turned black as she smiled. I stepped out into the clearing behind Sarah. The girl glanced at me.

"Castiel? Huh. Long time no see! Don't worry I'll deal with you in a bit. Right now I have to deal with this mortal." She said. I heard a noise and glanced to my right. Dean and Sam were on either side of the clearing in the woods, creeping towards the girl.

"Tala! Listen to me! I don't want to kill you but I will if I have to." Sarah said as she reached for her bow. The girl-Tala-rolled her eyes.

"As if. And I'm not even Tala, well I'm wearing her as a meatsuit but, oh never mind." She said.

"I don't want to fight you..." Sarah said again. I heard a branch snap and Tala spun around and glared up at the trees.

"Sam Winchester!" She yelled as Sam fell out of the tree quickly scurried over to us, standing beside me. I saw Dean throw somthing into the lake behind Tala when Sam smiled.

"Your going down," he said smirking.

"Oh really? What are you going to do against a fully trained knight of hell possessing a girl that grew up in hell with lucifer as a teacher? Huh? Call all your moose brethren out of the woods to trample me to death?" Tala taunted. Sam smirked and rolled his eyes.

"I don't have moose brethren. I am the alpha moose, but I do have a brother that's a squirrel, and can apparently climb trees way better than I can." As Sam spoke. Dean jumped out of the tree above tala and swung down on the rope, kicking her square in the chest and sending her flying into the lake. She started growling and screaming and smoking.

"Dean? Did you turn the entire lake into holy water?" I asked. He nodded, grinning. We walked over to the edge and I realized it was a sheer cliff face, no way she could get out. Dean started performing the exorcism, Tala screaming threats and cussing the whole time. As Dean finished the exorcism it all went quiet, and I realized Tala's body was floating face down in the water and she wasn't moving. Sarah's face grew pale in horror and Sam swore. Not Dean. Dean dove in and swam out to her, grabbing her shoulders and hauling her to shore.
We ran over to them and Dean was lying on the ground trying to catch his breath while Tala was caughing up water and hyperventilating. Sam checked on both of them, while Sarah ran straight to Tala. I was staring at Dean. He glanced up and caught my eye, and we held the gaze. It could have been a second or eternity later, I don't know which, when Sam cleared his throat. We broke the gaze and walked back up to the clearing. Sarah was working on building a fire and Sam was taking care of Tala.

"That was brave." I said, glancing to my right at Dean.

"Not really...it was only water." He replied.

"It's November. In northern Minnesota. There is ice on the majority  of the lake and the water is about 33.2 degrees. The air is 29.4 degrees. That's cold, like, hypothermia cold," I responded. I looked at him and he tried to smile at me but instead his leg gave out and he fell on me.

"Woah! Dean, alright lean on my shoulder." I said. We hobbled up the hill to camp, and even though I was freezing cold, I could feel the heat in my cheeks as I blushed uncontrolably. He's cold. Maybe I could warn him up-no! Ewwww! Gross! I'm straight! Maybe. Dean sat down on a fallen tree and I went to go get Sam.

"Sam. Deans muscles are giving out and he is shivering. Also he is talking funny, does he have hypothermia?" I asked. Sam looked at me worriedly.

"Go get a fire started. I'll send Sarah to go get his coat from by the shore. Keep him warm." He replied. I ran back to Dean.

"How the hell am I going to start a fire in this infernal weather?" I asked. He shrugged.

"Your an angel. Figure it out. Or just use matches." He answered. His teeth were chattering.

I was about to respond when I saw sarah had already started the fire. She got up and walked off toward Tala and Sam.

"Take your shirt off." I said. He looked at me in bewilderment.

"What?" He asked incredulously.

"I said take your shirt off. It's soaking wet and freezing cold. We need to dry it off." I explained, turning a little red in the cheeks.

"Oh, right." He said. He took his shirt off and threw it by the fire sarah had started. I had to bite my tongue to not squeal. He put his hands behind his head and leaned back against the tree, then closed his eyes. I took in the sight. Okay never mind I turned extremely red in the cheeks. He looked peaceful for once. The perfect combination of moonlight and firelight reflected off the snow and illuminated his face, getting every single detail in perfection. His hair was all ruffled up, which in my opinion was sexy. His strong arms were a gift to this world. I wonder what it would be like to fall asleep in those arms. I mentally rolled my eyes and buried my gay thoughts. My gaze found its way to his tatoo. I wonder what it would be like kissing that. My gay subconscious found its way back. Alright you win. I'm gay. I am gay for Dean Winchester. I finally accepted the fact that I was gay. Having Dean in front of me shirtless? Yeah probably one of the deciding factors. The firelight danced on his tan skin, and don't even get me started on his abs.

"Like what you see?" He asked without opening his eyes. I turned my head away and mentally slapped myself in the face. "Cas, can I ask you somthing?"
I nodded in assent and he sat up. "Why did you save me? When I was human I killed people. I lied, cheated, and broke the law. When I was in hell I tortured souls that were already broken. Me, one of the least righteous people, tortured souls that were better than mine a hundred fold. Then you brought me back from the pit. Cas, why did you bring me back? Why not bring some genius, charity worker instead of me? The stupid, insane murderer that is wanted by the FBI? Cas I sold my soul for Sammy. And I would do it again and again. I should be in Hell right now. It's were I belong. Cas I used to want to die. I hated my life. Then as soon as I did I realized how stupid that was. But I also realized how I deserved to be there after all the evil I caused. Cas, I wanted to die. I deserved it. I never wanted to leave Sammy but I couldn't take it. How many deaths I watched, how many people I couldn't save. And only death would have ended that. Cas, why did you save someone that you could never truly save?" He was staring at the ground, but I saw a tear roll down his cheek. I couldn't stand to see him like this.

"Dean look at me. Don't ever say that. I saved you because YOU save people. You don't expect thanks, or payment. You save people because of the good in you. We can all see it. Dean, I'm an angel, yet your a hundred times more righteous than I'll ever be." He looked up at me. "And I saved you because you are important Dean, your not just a waste of space. Sam needs his brother. We all love you. I saved you because, damnit Dean I love you." His eyes grew wide when I said that but I didn't really notice. What I did notice is me tilting his head up and kissing him. I don't know what made me do it. Maybe it was just the heat of the moment.

But damn it felt good.