Secrets // Ethan Dolan

12. Thoughts

Chapter 12, Thoughts

"Katie, please don't leave me like that." His eyes were sad, broken almost. His grip around my wrist tightened lightly, but not in a hurtful way. "Please, please, please, don't leave me."

"Give me one good reason not to." It came out as only a whisper but he had heard me just fine. Why was he making things so hard for me? I had been planning on leaving him for such a long time now; I packed my suitcase, booked a plane ticket, discussed everything with my mum and yet, here I was, unable to leave.

Oliver kept silent for a while but after a few seconds, his beautiful voice filled my ears. "Think about all the things we've been through. Think about the first time that we met. Do you remember how we met? Because I do." I closed my eyes, not wanting to think about all the memories. "It was a hot summer day, but not too hot. I was hanging out with my friends at the local mall and suddenly, you walked by, all alone, reading a book. You were reading 'All the bright places' and you had tears in your eyes but a small smile on your face. I remember thinking 'Wow, she must be the most beautiful girl alive' and my friends were thinking the same thing. They dared me to go after you and talk to you, but I was too scared, 'cause what would a girl like you do with a guy like me? Nothing, right? But I was wrong. I bumped into you a couple days later, back in the mall, you were reading a different book, but I couldn't pay attention to it, you were the only thing I saw. You know the rest of the story since we haven't been apart ever since."

Tears started to roll down my cheeks, I didn't want to cry, I just couldn't help it.

"Think about the time that we went to the bookstore and I bought all the books you looked at. Think about the time we made cookies together but accidently threw it in my mum's face. Think about the time that we adopted a cat and think about the time that we adopted another one. Think about all the dates we've been on, how you spent hours trying to look more beautiful than you already were or all the times that I was late 'cause I was doing the same thing. Think about us, Katie."

"Katie? Katie Campbell, pay attention or I will throw you out of my class." A hand slapped down on my table and Mrs. Henderson's voice pulled me out of my thoughts. "Now, what is the answer to my question?" Shit. I didn't even know what class I was in right now.

"I don't know, I'm sorry Mrs." She looked at me like I just said the most stupid thing ever.

"This is your last warning, Katie. Pay attention or I will seriously throw you out."

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I was sitting in the cafeteria when all of a sudden I heard a voice from behind me. "Aha, the goody two-shoes almost got sent out of class today." Hannah sat down beside me and greeted me with a cheeky smile, like she knew something I didn't.

"Yeah, I got lost in my thoughts and couldn't answer the question, pretty stupid if you ask me."

"Mhmm, thinking about that Ethan kid again, huh?"

I choked on my cold mac and cheese (it had been in the fridge for ages and it just screamed my name this morning to take it with me) and I felt my head turning as red as a tomato. "What? N-no, why would you think that?" I asked.

"I know you too damn well, don't try lying to me. Speaking of Ethan, he came to talk to me that night in the club. He was looking for you." She put a piece of bread in her mouth. Ethan was looking for me? Why was he looking for me? Maybe he wanted to apologize, I thought, or maybe he just wanted to make you look bad in front of everyone. "He seemed pretty jealous, too."

"Jealous?" The word came out way too fast and too happy and I wasn't the only one who noticed that. "Ehm, I mean: Jealous? Why would he be jealous?" Nice try, Katie. Nice try.

"God, you sound like a desperate whore. But yeah, I guess because of the same reason that you would get jealous if he would be talking to some girl the whole night."

"He doesn't like me like that. And I'm pretty sure that he wasn't jealous."

"Believe what you want to believe, honey." He was mean to me, he still hadn't apologized for the fact that he was mean to me and he always made me look a fucking fool. He sure as hell didn't like me.

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