Oblivious Hearts (Phan)

Chapter Eighteen

I'm so cold... Why is it so cold here? And it's so dark. There is fear bubbling inside me, it's so intense I think I might be sick.

It's so...

So...

It's Hell. That's what this place is. The Devil is here now. He's walking towards me with his weapons, the evil red glow pulsating around him. A metal rod, rusty and jagged, dragging along the bare concrete floor, the scraping noise reverberating in this pitch-black cage.

I want to struggle, to free myself from the chains around my body but I can't.

His breath is hot and wet, the rancid smell of anger spilling from his lips over my own. The taste is acidic and metallic, but no bad man would taste nice.

The Devil's heat fills my own body, surrounding my soul and boiling it alive.

My bones are weak, his presence drawing out any life left in them.

He is the Devil and my blood knows it. It is pounding through my veins, my heart desperate to cling onto that oh-so-human urge of survival, when my mind wants to give up and let my life end, let the pain end.

His hands are gripping my fragile body again; his touch is as scolding as the pits from which he came. His skin leaving burns across my once soft skin.

My body is marked inside and out. If I live through this, one day the scars will fade but I will still see the touches on my skin.

There is pain around my neck. I can't breathe. My vision is clouding over. There is pain in my chest.

The cold air hits my legs. The pain is there too.

I can feel the familiar ripping and stinging. I'm crying. I can feel the hot tears pouring down my cheeks. Or at least I think I can. But no, they are not there. I can feel them in my mind, my body too numb and weak to perform even that simple action.

A scream is building inside me, threatening to explode from my body but it never does.

My screams disappeared a long time ago.

Then the pain stops.

One more sharp blow to my face, the thick blood seeping into my mouth. The salty, copper taste filling my throat, forcing me to swallow it away.

The Devil drags his weapons across the floor, away from me at last. He's had his fun for now.

There is a small light from above.

Is that Heaven checking in on their fallen angel?
"He is no angel!" I want to scream. "He deserves no peace!" But I can't, he has used his power over fire and pain to suck away my spirit.

I've dwelled in Hell for so long now I have forgotten the sins that I must have committed to end up here.

Maybe one day Heaven will open it's gates to check on me. Maybe one day God will forgive me...

There is a warm white light filling up all the corners of the room now. How odd.

I can feel Heaven's clouds lifting me up and allowing me to rest on them. An angel has stepped out of the sky above and descended.

At last God has chosen to forgive me.

Or has my heart finally allowed me to escape?

The warm, bright eyes of this golden angel have entranced me. I can feel his soft touch on my brittle, burnt skin, his healing hands are repairing the broken skin and my broken soul.

Asleep, Dan snuggled in to Phil chest, his arm slid over Phil's body pulling him closer.

The angel has embraced me and is pulling me towards Heaven, the comforting white light leading the way to a happy place. The air is pleasant and I have no need to be afraid any longer, my angel has got me. I lean into him, gratitude flooding from my very core. I can look nowhere but his eyes.

Phil snuggled in closer to Dan a sigh of satisfaction escaping his lips.

I am not afraid any longer. My angel is here.

Phil woke up, his eyes fluttering open to see Dan's peaceful face so close to his own. Phil's upper lip was damp and his back had the shadow of a shiver from earlier in the night. But now his blood warmed up again, relaxing him. He knew he was okay.

It was only a dream.

No.

It was only a memory...

Okay I know I said I wouldn't upload today but I had time to write so I just quickly wrote this, sorry if it's bad. 

Fear – Tech N9ne Collabos <- song

I hope you liked it, let me know what you think. It's a little teaser chapter, a hint at what's to come. It took like twenty minutes to write so I apologise for it.

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I probably won't update tomorrow though (but you never know...)

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