If only you knew

Chapter Six

She wanted to know what he has been trying to tell her, she thought of some ideas, but then she went to sleep. She woke up and looked at the calendar she only had three months left.

She went over and told Xavier that there was only three months left. He looked really shocked and then he said it went to fast. She asked him what he meant. He said it seemed like they would have more time, and that she wasn't there that long. She wanted to stay and be where she loves. She doesn't understand how she could know someone for that little time and was going to miss him so much. She didn't even realize that she was missing someone in her life, and she was not about to let it get away again.

She just didn't want to leave, it was coming to fast. If she was going to leave she wanted to live a normal life first. If she had to leave she wanted to know about life instead of the way she was living. What was she supposed to do leave and pretend Xavier wasn't real? Like it never happened? She wouldn't, he was the best thing that ever happened to her.

They were talking and he was talking about school. She wondered what school was like. He noticed she was thinking about something he asked what it was. She said she wanted to know what it was like. "He said it's like if you ever just really want to know something, you know that there is always a way to learn it there."

She said it must be nice to go places when you want. He said it was kind of cool. She thought it would be cool to go somewhere that other people go. She said she never got to do anything normal.

She asked if he would take her somewhere a lot of people go. He said sure and asked where she wanted to go. She asked where most people their age go. He thought and said "I think we should go to... the... mall." She said "the mall?" He said it was one place that had a lot of stores inside, that way they could go to a lot of places at once. She said that sounded really... great.

She called a babysitter for Wence and Shanna, and told them not to tell her anything about Aletta going to the country and those things.

They went to the mall and had a really good time. Xavier thought of it as a date, or what could be one. Aletta thought of it as them hanging out. He wanted it to be a date so bad. She had no idea how he felt. He thought that it was his own fault she didn't know, he could never tell her, but he tried to tell her many times.

They were at the mall all day and when they came home they talked for hours then he went home. She woke up in the morning and there were about ten packages on her porch with the address to her from the country. Inside each one was a beautiful dress. There was a card from her mother and father that said - we hope you like these, you can wear one to your country. She thought they were beautiful.

She thought maybe she could just not show up to the country, she and Xavier could just run away together, but this wasn't a fairy tale. She couldn't just run away with him, and do that to him plus she had to go, who was going to rule if she didn't. She wanted to know what was so special that she herself had to rule. Why her? Why not someone else from the family? She wanted to stay. She wanted to be here with her brother, and her sister, and Xavier. Aletta also just wanted to stay here and be where she belonged.

She didn't fit in as a princess and she wanted to be a regular girl. What could she do she had to leave in three months and time was running out fast. She wanted to be somewhere where she could be her and not be judged, or forced into something that she didn't want to do.

Aletta wished she was free. She wanted to be her own person, make her own decisions, and be herself, sure she would make mistakes but they would be her mistakes. She wanted answers from anywhere or anyone. Why can't she just be a normal girl? Everything she ever wanted was right where she wanted it for once she wanted exactly what she had. She didn't want to leave she always knew she was going to leave but now she just couldn't. How could she just leave him just get up and go, just like it never happened, except to her family, it didn't happen.