orphic » jacob black

0.21

I love Jensen Ackles.

Sorry this isn't going to be the greatest chapter ever. I just got diagnosed with depression last week and this week, I've been sick af so just bear with me.

Justice:

When I walk through the front door, my parents are in the kitchen sitting at the kitchen table. "JJ? What happen to your arm?" My dad says gruffly, looking at the bite marks.
(a/n I was really going a Dean Winchester voice there but idk how to describe that)

"Turns out cliff diving can be dangerous. Who knew?" I shrug.

He eyes me suspiciously but drops the subject.

"Now let's just get this family meeting over with, I want to hang out with my friends later." I mumble as I stand by the table.

"Justice!" My mom hisses.

"What? He's my dad! He's seen me at my worst." I snap, "Oh wait, he hasn't because he left!"

Then I turn to my mom, "How can you forgive him so easily? He left you with a kid. You literally became an alcoholic because of him. You let your boyfriend treat you like crap because of him. Why mom?"

I didn't realize before that I had started crying.
Damn I've been a mess lately.
I wipe my pointer finger under my eye, trying to stop my mascara from running.

My dad gets up from his chair and hugs me.
I'm getting hugged by my dad for the first time in six years.

Funny story about my dad, he's a big dude.
I'm not tall by any means but my dad is probably six-three.

"Why'd you leave me?" I cry into his chest.

"One day I'll explain. Just know that I never wanted to." He sighs.

My mom comes up and wraps her arms around me also, "Let's do something as a family tonight." She says.

"No." I say, breaking away from the hug, "We're not a family. I was alone for a long time. Jake, Quil, Lily, Kim, the rest of the group, they're my family." And I leave to head up to my room.

Yeah that was cold-hearted of me but I'm done.
Physically, I hurt but mentally, I'm broken.

I don't want this to become a pity party. I just want a few hours alone to just cry or read or just do nothing in general.

Ever since I came back it's been "Eat JJ" or "Don't forget your meds" or "Did you hear that Bella Swan is getting married?" And I've been babysat for the past few weeks. Everyone thinks I'm going to hurt myself or go crazy or some shit. I'm literally going crazy from everyone all over me all the time.

Then my bastard of a dad comes back.
Fan-fucking-tastic.

I plop down on my bed and text Lily.

"You free?"

She texts back almost immediately, "Headed out of town with Embry for a few days."