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Justice:

"Jay, you have to eat." Jake says sternly

"Not hungry." I shrug

"Baby please." he begs, "Anything. You were gone for almost two months and you barely eat anything. I'm worried."

I feel terrible. Jake's right, I haven't been eating or sleeping. Whenever I actually get some sleep, I wake up screaming. If I eat too much, my body can't handle it and I puke it back up.

I haven't seen my mom yet. I don't know even she misses me or noticed that I'm gone. I've been staying at Jake's for 3 days now. I feel like that I'm getting in the way but every time I mention going home, Jake gets mad and says he's never letting me out of his sight again. Which is a little obsessive if you ask me.

"Let's go." Jake snaps and walks over to me

"Where are we going?" I ask quietly, not wanting to make him mad.

"Emily and Sam's." he says, getting my jacket and beanie.

"No thanks." I say looking down.

"It wasn't a question." he says handing me my jacket.

I put on my jacket and realize I stink. I took a shower with Kim's help the first day after I woke up but I haven't since.

"Ugh I need a shower." I curl my nose

"I'll help you when we get home." he smiles and pulls my beanie on my head.

"I can take care of myself Jake." I say softly

"Apparently you can't Jay." he snaps

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"First, you get yourself kidnapped. Then you refuse to eat and sleep." he snaps

"And you think that's my fault?" I cry

"I'm just saying you could try harder to get better."

I look at him in disbelief, "I'm going home Jake. Sorry to get in the way." I say quietly

I grab my phone and head towards the door.

"Where are you going JJ? Your car is in the shop." Jake says

"Then I'm walking." I say curtly

"Shit, baby I'm sorry. Please don't go outside. It's freezing. I was just looking for someone to blame." he says frantically, "it wasn't your fault."

"It's fine Jake. I get it." I say softly and walk out of the house. It's cold. Fücking freezing to be honest. Luckily, my house isn't too far away.

I start walking, I'm still weak from the leech so I walk slowly. I start shivering even more but I don't care. I'm tired of being a burden to everyone. I just want to be able to take care of myself for a change. I'm defenseless and weak. I don't know why the pack puts up with me.