I talk to Tonks for a while before going to speak to my dad, something I don't do very often. I walk up the stairs silently and knock on the door,
"Come in Harry"
"Oh um, I'm not Harry..."
"Erica! Not now girl, I'm waiting for Harry!"
"But um, it's kind of important..."
"WHAT!?!?"
"n-never mind. I-I'll just be going..."
"Good, and if you see Harry tell him to hurry up!"
I walk away from the door with my head down trying determinedly to fight the tears that are gathering at the corner of my grey eyes, they used to be light blue when I was younger but now they are life less and colour less. I sneek up to the attic with my book and curl up in the corner of the dusty old room, I cry silently until the trapdoor opens slowly revealing Remus Lupin. He looks at me for a moment before approaching me,
"Hello Erica." He finally speaks
"Hi Mr Lupin..." I stammer
"Why do you call me that when you've known me your whole life?" He inquires softly
"I-it's p-polite?" I answer unsurly
"Well yes. It is but why do you choose to say that when all the others call me Remus?"
"I d-don't know?" I say but It comes out as more of a question
"Why are you crying Erica?" He asks, his tone still soft as if id break if he spoke any louder than necessary.
"N-NO reason M-Mr L-lup-pin..." I stutter messily. I mentally slap myself. Or so I thought...
"Why did you do that Erica!?" He asks, sounding quite alarmed
"D-do what-t M-Mr Lup-pin?"
"W-why would you hit-t your self dear?" Now it was his turn to stutter.
"I w-wouldn't kn-now what you'd be ref-fering to s-sir!" I sat slightly louder than before. He sighs and asks a question that no ones ever asked me before and I'm not sure whether to be dissapointed or releaved
"How are things with you and your father?" He asks quietly
"Fine." I reply stiffly and probably way too quickly
"Are you sure..." he asks but it doesn't sound like a question, more like he's making a point.
"Yes. Why do you ask" i reply hastily, my fear clearing up my stutter
"Because, as I said, I've known you your entire life and you and Sirius have never had a conversation when I'm around. Why would you say that is?" He probes lightly
"Because im not Harry." I mutter bitterly but I don't think he hears
"Pardon?"
"I said, you'd have to ask him!" I cover quickly.
He just nods and walks away.
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Erica Black~Never Enough (1)
Fanfiction(Set in the order of the phoenix) I was never good enough for my dad, he always favoured the boy who lived, my god-brother. He didn't bother to hide it either, no one in the order likes me apart from madeye, Remus and tonks. Grimmauld place is my ho...
