Dear You, From, Me [COMPLETED & EDITING]

December 27, 2015

Dear You,
I'm done, I'm very upset and angry. Like seriously not long after my sister left, we get to yet another argument, which was a lot worse than before.
This time, it's a lot worse.

Everyone was literally screaming, spitting out anything that comes to mind, hurting the other person.
My sibling (excluding my sister with the disability) took my Dad's side and Mom was all by herself.

She was trying so hard not to choke every time she needed to defend herself or simply say something. She couldn't hold it in anymore.

After what happened a couple days ago, she became a mess. She's cried nonstop and our parents haven't been on speaking terms if so, very small communication.

They even, more my dad, stopped wearing their wedding rings, and I knew things were very bad.

Mom came to me yesterday, and asked how I would feel if they divorced.
I told her honestly, which is surprising because I never open up to anyone, well never's an understatement, more like 98-95% of the time.

For whatever reason, I broke down.

Not just because of the situation in itself, but because, I had my mom again, and I was losing her more and more with each battle that occurred. I was losing my family also, which hurts even more.

When mom died, things were horrible for me. I lost my mother figure and I also lost my family.

It wasn't the same, and then when my step mom and sister came into our lives, it was a family again.

It seems that after the first two years of being in this family, things went down south.

I told her exactly that and she told me this: "No matter what happens, you'll always be considered my daughter. I will love each and every one of you, even if we decide to end things. I'm always here for you guys, you especially..."

Even when she said those things, it still hurt.

I couldn't imagine losing my mother figure or the family again.
It's, too much.

You know the worse part about the situation is that it's my biological mom's birthday, and I know, she would be very disappointed in all of us.

From, Me