Death Sounds Like A Melody (Merome)

Chapter 19 - With you

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Guys please help me, I can't stop listening to 5 Seconds Of Summer. What on earth has happened to me!? I DONT EVEN LIKE THEM. But you got to admit, their music is pretty.

Fun fact: They are Australian and I saw their first ever public performance on a morning show XD. After that, they exploded.

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Mitch POV

Minutes turn into hours, hours become days and then days become weeks. And it not one of those days have I not been afraid. On the outside, it looks like I'm not bothered by the past becoming reality. But on the inside everything is collapsing. Everything was perfect in my little world for a moment. And that small moment was the best time of my life. I had friends that cared about me and a boyfriend who loved me. The past was long forgotten, My silhouettes left on the wall.  But now, everything has changed.

Everyone and everything feels alien to me. My friends don't feel like real people, and it feels like Jerome love me anymore. I know he does, he loves me so much and I do too. But it doesn't feel the same anymore. I'm letting all my friends down all because I can't handle the truth. The truth that I'm no longer safe.

The truth that, yet again, I want to kill myself.

I want to die. I want it all to end. I'm so over this. Nothing has ever gone right in my miserable life. Happiness has yet again become foreign to me.

Ty has started to beat me up in school yet again. Not only physically, but mentally. He is starting to get into my head, entering my dreams and sometimes having hallucinations of him beside me. It's seriously starting to hurt me more then it did before. The other day in music I had to leave and sit outside as I almost had a panic attack. Since the teacher knew she just let me be.

The others are always there to help me when I get beaten up, but the other day Alesa got punched in the face because she tried to stop Ty. She is living proof that when people are around me, they get hurt. I don't want people to get hurt anymore. And it's not just Ty beating me up anymore, the jocks are too. Ty has taken Jerome's place as the top dog. He has all the power and I am assuming it's because he told them what happened between us. He is probably seen as a hero in the jocks eyes.

So that's why tomorrow night, on the 10th of February, I'm going to kill myself.

I might as well kill myself before anything bad happens again. The plan is, go to school for the last time and have one last day with my friends. Then go to my house with Jerome and make love for the last time. On Fridays he has to go to a course for an hour. So during that hour, I'm going to hang myself. Dad has gone off for work again.

I'm truly going to miss Jerome and the friends I have made. They showed me the light when I needed it the most. But I can't handle it anymore. I can't handle the darkness inside of me. There is a bottomless void that will never be filled. Part of me is missing and the only way to get that part of me back is to seek it. That part of me died, and now, if die, I'll finally have that part inside me filled.

I will be free.

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I sit in the cafeteria with all the guys. They seem quite happy today. It's been two weeks since I won the money from the music teacher. Not much has happened in those two weeks. I reach into my pocket and grab out a USB. I hand it to Adam who is looking at it weirdly.