Death Sounds Like A Melody (Merome)

LGBT+

Hey guys, I need to talk to you for a sec.

I'm writing the next chapter right now, so calm yo tities XD I know it's been a while but I've been busy with school, I've had tests for 2 weeks strait. And, the next chapter has a lot of stuff happening in it, I want it to be up to a standard I am happy with.

First off, I want you guys to listen to the song I put above, especially if your part of the LGBT+ community. I really feel like I need to talk about this because I've never really talked about being part of the gay and transgender community. In case you didn't know, Being Agender is just a category under the Transgender umbrella, and Pansexual being under the gay. This song has given me inspiration to talk to you guys about this. If you guys don't care, you don't have to read this, but I think the LGBT people should.

Now, I've talked a lot about depression and anxiety. I've told you guys my story, well, a small part of it anyway. I've talked about my experiences with bad friendships, fights, bitchs, self harming, etc. But I feel like I've never talked about being Pansexual and Agender.

(I'm Agender now, I've found a category I like under the transgender umbrella).

Being Agender...is hard. It's hard because I'm trying to keep it a secret. Everyone knows me as a girl, not a guy or a neutral entity. I can't talk to my parents about this either because they don't support that type of thing. Being Pansexual is so much easier in terms of keeping it private. I've had bad experiences with not being able to keep it private, because one of my irl friends stalked my account. I've talked about this before, so I'm not going to go too deep into that.

Honestly, this is half the reason why I have depression. I've been diagnosed with it, and anxiety, WOOPDE FUCKIN DO. Although, I've been putting on a mask at school. I think I'm actually turning into a bully because of how much acting I'm putting on. I've said some uncool shit to people in my class. I don't like doing it, but it's this, or crying. I broke down at school sport the other day. One of the girls in my class listened to everything I had to say. I told her everything about being, Agender, Pansexual, depressed, everything. Turns out she is having some serious issues with her friends too and is questioning her sexuality. I've tried to hang out with her, but she keeps running away with the friends that are supporting her.

So, yay.

If you guys have listened to this song, there is something I want you to think about.

You CAN choose your friends, You CAN choose your family.

I've chosen my friends, which are my family. Inthefanfic pittmann13 HeyItsSophy bbauthor . I love them so much, they ARE my friends, and they ARE my family. Sure, they have other irl friends, but they still love me. A couple of them aren't straight and we all support eachother completely. Im the only one who is Genderfluid/Agender, unless someone hasn't  come out. They support me. They ACCEPT me for who I am.

To anybody out there who needs a friend, who needs someone to support them, please don't hesitate to PM me or leave a comment. I read all of my comments and PM'S. I want to help you guys. I'm pretty fucked up myself, so I don't know how much of a help I'm going to be, but if you just want to rant, I'll be there.

I know how some of you guys feel to an extent. No one can truly understand how you feel. But there are so many people that can help you.

So, I hope this guys makes you feel a little better ^.^

Tyler, the depressed, Agender and Pansexual, is out <3