Becoming a YouTuber?!

Chapter 3: Everything is public

A few days ago, I helped Niomi move into her new flat along with her mum and stepdad. As always, she had seemed like a very organised person and by now her flat was practically fully decorated and so gorgeous.

I purposely had stayed away from the topic of the Narcus break up, figuring she'd tell me if she wanted to. I didn't want to pry into their relationship and even if I was their friend, their personal relationship was none of my business.

When I said goodbye to her after a long day of moving all her tonnes of stuff, she embraced me into a hug and held on quite tight.

"Thank you so much for coming to help me. In all honestly, I've turned down quite a few friends, who wanted to help me move. I just didn't want to be questioned about everything, even if they mean no harm. But I just sort of knew that would never be a problem with you. Thank you, Abbey," Niomi said, still holding the hug.

"Of course, Nims. That is your personal life. I only wanted to come help where I could and make sure you were doing alright. That's the extend of my friend obligations."

She broke the hug and then looked at me in a way that upset me. Like she was about to say something she knew I didn't want to hear.

"What?" I asked, already fighting to keep my heartbeat steady.

"It's nothing really, but I just hope you've prepared yourself a bit. I never thought my relationship with Marcus would end and if it did, I certainly didn't want subtweets about it. What I'm trying to say... when you choose to do YouTube and are involved with another YouTuber everything becomes so public. Even with our pleas to our viewers to drop it, it's still the most commented about on all my social media."

Niomi sounded sad and I stepped forward to pull her into another hug. She was definitely a strong woman but obviously, she wanted something so intimate and private to stay that way. I often tried to forget how hard people where shipping Nate and I and how invested they had become in our relationship. What would they do if it fell apart?

I had tried to stay out of it on social media but I had seen what had happened with the Narcus ship. Most where supportive of both parties but quite a lot sounded like they were heartbroken themselves and some even went so far to say they didn't believe in love when Narcus broke up.

I had to admit when I decided to become a YouTuber, I hadn't really thought about Natigail. I had only thought about myself as an individual, which in my mind was still the most important part of me making a YouTube channel. Of course, I was part of canon Natigail but Nate and I were still individuals and even if we now shared a career, if I could even begin to call my YouTube channel that, we still were two separate people.

"Earth to Abbey," Emma called. It was our weekly Sunday lunch and I had definitely been spacing out thinking about my conversation with Niomi a few days ago.

"Sorry, sis," I mumbled, trying to shake the thoughts from my mind.

"What's on your mind? You looked a bit worried," Emma said, stuffing her mouth with a forkful of the buffet food.

I never really lied to my sister and wasn't about to. I also hoped she might be able to give me some clarity on this subject.

"About Narcus..." I said, drawing it out wondering if I should add the second part, "and Natigail."

"Is there something wrong between you and Nate?" Emma asked immediately.

"No, why would you think that?" I asked.

"Well, if you were thinking about both ships and considering one of them broke up, I just got a bit worried."

"No, we're fine," I said, playing with my food on my plate. When I got all caught up in my own thoughts, I usually lost my apatite. "We're busy, but when are we not?"