they say that writers,
especially poets,
are more prone to mental illness--
not just any mental illness:
but mental illnesses that contribute to suicide or suicidal thoughts.
i don't find this claim to be untrue,
and that bothers me.
it bothers me that of how many of the writers and poets i know of who finally 'did it',
most were married with children.
i had always assumed being married with children meant i had more than enough reasons to live,
and that i would be safe from myself, my thoughts, my moods.
perhaps i was wrong
very wrong!
and that kills me more than my own hands ever could
