i'm so upset and i can't even explain why
every little thing keeps pisses me off
there were some big things,
with my stupid bones and this stupid place
and my stupid school and stupid friends
and the way you and i have been fighting--
about everything.
we're both so stressed, because of him.
and because i'm stressed your stressed
and vice versa.
it's all building up and i just want to
E X P L O D E
i don't know if i can handle this anymore
every single instinct and bone and muscle and everything that's right and wrong in this awful world
tells me to run, run away
(I'm always running, it's how i have dealt with things--
but i guess they finally caught up to me)
i've been so mean.
saying mean things.
to everyone.
i'm so full of anger and sadness--
and these little changes and pricks and people
make it all so much worse.
i'm so tired of it all.
and so so so mad.
and upset.
and just ugh.
ugh.
