when i was bathing in the word,
drinking the divine books
and mediating and praying--
my days went by so smoothly.
everything rolled off my back,
nothing got under my skin.
i knew the right words to say,
i could comfort and guide my friends.
my days were spent with me gently floating along the rivers of life:
i did not drown or struggle or even have to swim--
i stayed afloat because of You.
but lately i've forgotten You,
i've stopped talking to You and reading Your words to me...
and i've suffered for it,
because life has been an uphill climb on a jagged mountain of broken glass,
completely naked.
my feet have been shredded and i have fallen so many times--
my blood streams like the river i once sailed so peacefully down.
i miss the serene days.
i miss You.
