Hidden Essence Book I - The Bloody Moon

Chapter XIV

>- Sage's mom as Liv Tyler -<

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"Mom, I failed. I failed so bad. I'm a big failer" I cried. I thought I did so well. I don't know how it happened. How come I failed? Mom came closer to me and hugged me tightly against her perfumed chest. She smelled like apples, fresh spring green apples. Lovely. "Sage, what happened, you're not a failer... What are you talking about?" Her soft motherlike voice said. "I failed my exam, I did my best and I thought it was going to go perfectly, but I failed. I'm such a loser." I cried even more. My grades weren't the best of all, but failing? That's so depressing. She cupped my face in between her hands and gently wiped off the tears that were streaming down my cheeks. Her blue eyes comforted me in a way that she only could. "Sage. It's okay. It's just an exam. You will catch up on your grades, I know you will. This doesn't have to sadden you so much." She told me. "Did I not dissapoint you?" I asked and her face darkened with a grey shadow. Her lips formed a malicious grin and the blue in her eyes was gone. "Oh Sage... If you only knew how bad you've dissapointed me..." She started laughing like a psycho. I knew I dissapointed her. I knew it, that's all I'm good at, dissapointing people. "I'm so sorry, mom." I cried as I tried to reach for her, but my hand passed through her without even touching her. She laughed even more. "Oh don't you dare and crawl back to me after all you have done." She snapped and my heart broke a little more. I didn't want this. I didn't want to hurt her nor to dissapoint her. I didn't want to break us apart. I just wanted to be a normal family again. Mom's laughing slowly changed into sobs and eventually the only thing I could hear were her cries. I tried to grab her hand, tried to talk to her, but her body was fading away. At one point I didn't even see her anymore, but I could still hear her screaming and crying. My heart was gradually shattering to the floor with each sob. I'm so sorry. She didn't hear me as she continued to cry. I could sense the pain in her voice. Make it stop! Make the crying stop! I can't handle it anymore! I hate it just as much as I hate myself for being such a selfish bitch! I closed my eyes and backed away into a small corner. I sat myself on the ground and wrapped my arms around my legs. "I hate myself." I sobbed into my knees. I'm a horrible person. The only thing I deserve is a sudden death. There at least I would be free from her crying and free from dad's yelling, free from pain and suffering. "I hate myself!" I yelled into the darkness that was surrounding me. "I'm so sorry..." I crumbled to the floor and cried like a baby. "Sage." A soft voice whispered into my ears. I squeezed my eyes shut as I tried to block it away. "Sage... Love me." The floor suddenly dissapeared and I was left to a free fall into the black void.

My eyes snap open and meet his blue ones. "There you are. I've been trying to wake you up for ten minutes already... Are you okay?" He is standing outside the car through the passenger doorway. Gosh, these nightmares become more horrible every time. Love me? "What did you say?" I ask out of the blue and he frowns in confusion. "I said 'wake up' obviously..." He states. Was it the dream then? I'm so confused. I should just forget about it. "Never mind." I say as I try to make my way out of the car. He lets me through and I step out. We're at a gas station it looks like. I stretch out my arms and legs and yawn. The sun is shining brightly and the warmth of it is absolutely amazing. "I'm going to fill up the tank, here's some money. Go ahead and buy yourself something to eat." He hands me his wallet as he nods towards the shop. Wow, he trusts me enough to give me his damn wallet. Didn't see that one coming. "Where are we?" I ask as I look around. There's a lot of forest next to the high way. I walk back up to him and stand in front of him awaiting an answer. "We're taking another route, so instead of two hours of driving, we still have a day ahead of us. The normal route is clogged, can't risk it." He says and I sigh. He has literally not given me any useful information with that sentence. "You're still not going to tell me where we're going then?" I point out and he looks at the ground before focusing his eyes back on mine. He brings his hand up to my lips and softly rubs his thumb over my bottom lip. The gentle touch makes me melt into his hand. He presses a very soft and sweet kiss on my lips and makes my stomach do a back flip. My lips tingle at the contact and my legs nearly give in. He slowly pulls away and my eyes flutter open. "Trust me, everything will be alright. Now go and buy yourself something so I can go and fill up the tank." He says and leaves me standing on the parking lot with his wallet in my hand.