Hidden Essence Book I - The Bloody Moon

Chapter XXIV

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I've been sitting in here for hours, my heart is pounding so loudly. Chase is locked up as planned. In a few hours the Bloody Moon will start. I've never been so scared. I'm sitting on my bed looking at the beautiful full moon. Zach told me that when the eclipse starts the wolves of the Red Moon Pack will immediately attack. Stay strong, don't be afraid. 

"Hey." Zach's voice makes me jump and I gasp. "Ow, nervous?" He enters my bedroom and sits down next to me. "Terrified." I correct him and I lift my hand up to show him how much I'm shivering. His handsome face smiles at me and he puts his arm around me for comfort. "You've already fought them and killed some of their strongest wolves. Why are you freaking out?" He asks gently. "I'm freaking out because they're going to become ruthless and untamable." I speak nervously. "So you're going to tell me Sage Allwood is scared of dying?" I can sense the humor in his voice, but I'm sadly not in the mood. I gaze in his blue eyes and with that knock the smile of his face. "I'm scared of failing." I state firmly and he gulps. "I understand, but don't worry. We're all here to protect you, they won't get to you." He assures me by giving me a tight friendly hug. I accept the gesture as I need anything to calm myself down now.

George explained me that now that they couldn't get to me before the Bloody Moon, they're probably going to kill me along with the rest, well they're going to try. I hope they won't succeed at their mission. I need to keep my cool and be confident. I've trained for this, I know how to fight. I know what I want and I know what to pursue. I'm not losing, not tonight, not tomorrow and not ever again. I stand up from the bed and head out of the room leaving Zach there with a huge question mark on his face. I need some peace before this war starts. I trudge down the stairs and head to the backyard. One of my favorite places in this house. I kick out my shoes to feel the grass in between my toes. I sit down on the green lawn and breathe in the fresh air. This could not feel any better. My hands caress over the grass accepting the little tingles.

This is where I met her, the angel with the broken wings. I was sitting in this exact spot, meditating just like I'm doing now. Enjoying every piece of the silence until her tiny little footsteps pulled me out of my trance. The first impression you have of someone is always the best. My first impression of her was that I thought she was a lost girl that tried to find her way in this world. My first impression of her was me. I saw myself into those beautiful bambi eyes of her. Fright, insecurity, grief, everything that blue told me reminded me of myself. The way she would wake me up in the morning with the corners of her mouth pulled up. The way she would smile at me lovingly, even though I couldn't grant her the same kindness. She was magical, like a little fairy that sprinkled some dust over me and changed my whole perspective of life in not more than a quick second. How? I still don't know. I wish I had asked her before she left us for the afterlife. Out of all the things that I have lost, she tugs at my heart the most. Don't get me wrong, I miss mom and dad like I'm missing some limbs, but somehow she is the only one I can think about now.

A single tear falls onto the green grass I'm sitting on and feeds the ground with my sadness. I need to bring my thoughts elsewhere though. Those bloodthirsty wolves can barge in here any second now. My grief cannot be weakening me. I won't allow it. Change thoughts. Let's think about something fun, something that motivates me to fight rather than bringing me down. The only subject I can think of is him though. That can't be good, right? I don't know, I don't know how to feel about him. We've talked some of all of this through and I think I can consider him trustworthy, but I want to stay sceptical about him. He has asked me to stay away from combat, they all did, but I refused. I owe this to Adelaide and to myself. If the pack loses then all of this would've been in vain. Adelaide would've died for nothing, the Blue Woodland Pack would've sacrificed their time and some of their lives for nothing. I would have been born for nothing. I won't give up this time. I'll gather up all the strength and courage in me until I have none leftover and I will win this fight. I will succeed at life.