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eighteen

I could barely see, my tears were blinding me.

I was crying hysterically. I couldn't stop sobbing.

"Ashley! Where are you?" I was pounding on her door.

"Alex?" I hear Myles' voice.

I immediately hugged him.

"Please don't let me go." I sobbed into his shoulder, I need someone to hug.

He picked me up and sat me on the couch. "Sorry I got mascara on your shirt."

"I don't care about the stupid shirt, I care about you. What happened?"

"I never meant anything to Parker," I said lowly.

"What do you mean?" He asked, my moving my hair away from my eyes.

I slowly laid down and rested my head on the small pillows on Ashley's couch.

"L-Last night Parker and I admitted our love for each other, but he was lying. He was using me, I feel completely pathetic." I broke down again.

"Alex, don't cry. Please don't cry." I could tell he felt really bad.

"Myles, I got Chinese food! And I even asked for some... Alex, oh my god what happened!" Ashley quickly dropped the food on the floor and ran to me.

"P-Parker," that's all she needed to hear to know why I was crying.

"Myles can you bring her to my room, I'm going to get her some water." Ashley more demanded than asked.

He nodded and picked me up bridal styles, I was already falling asleep in his arms. The crying had weakened me.

He sat me down on the bed and I laid down. He sat down on the corner and said, "I'm going to kill him."

"Myles I appreciate that bu-" I was soon interrupted by Ashley kicking Myles out.

I kicked off my shoes, Ashley made me drink some water and gave me a T-shirt. I changed my clothes and put my hair up in a messy bun. Then she tucked me in and Myles brought up some Chinese food. I stayed silent this entire process.

Just thinking of the words Parker said to me.

"You're a mistake."

"I don't love you, I don't love anyone. I only use people, and I used you."

I know the silence was bearable for Ashley but she knows I'm going through.

"Alex, I'm going to call your Mom and tell her you're here, I'll be right back. C'mon Myles." They both left the room and I slowly fell asleep.

* * *

Parker please don't leave me! Please don't go, no no!

"Alex, wake up!" Ashley shook me.

2:23 am

There were tears on my cheeks, I was breathing heavily.

"You had a nightmare, you were screaming." She hugged me and I started sobbing.

"I'm a mistake," I whispered.

"Who said that?" She asked.

"Parker said I was a mistake. And maybe he's right." I laid back down.

"No, you're not. He's a mistake and he made the biggest one by letting you go. Just go back to sleep, I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere." She said.

* * *

I probably looked a mess, but I honestly don't care.

What I wore to school was my last priority.