The Sacred Violet Heart

Me!

I slowly opened my eyes. The green curtain at the foot of the bed fluttered and bright light hit my eyes. I shielded my eyes with my palm while wondering what the noices outside were.

I recognized my parents' voices.

Mom: Ya! I think that would be better.

Dad: Take care of her and let me know if there is any problem.

Meanwhile I slowly gathered my energy to get to our living room.

My mom helped me sit on the sofa while I observed my dad getting ready to go to office. He is regional head of finance department in an MNC.

I smiled as he patted my head.

Dad: Bye dear! Don't worry about anything. Take care of your health. When you feel better, you can let your mother know what happened. Just remember that we are there for you. Take rest.. don't go to college today. You are weak.

I nodded.

He kissed my forehead and I waved him bye as he left to work.

My little sister came and hugged me. **she must have just woken up.**
My mom got her ready to school and she left within 1/2hr.

I was watching T.V. until then... trying to get him out of my thoughts.

When my mom got a bit of free time she came and sat beside me.

Mom: How are you feeling now?

ME: Much better!

After few seconds...

Mom: What happened?

ME: Hmm?

Mom: You collapsed as soon as you entered home yesterday! We were so worried!

ME: Ya! I am sorry.

Mom: So what happened?

ME: ...

Mom: I am your mother and you have no need to hide anything from me. I am here to be with you, to help you deal with the world around.
I just want you to be safe and happy.
I know you very well and will come to know when something is bothering you.

My parents are always so protective, I feel very safe when they are with me.
I really love them ... and I have never hidden anything from them.

I told everything to her with tears flowing from my eyes.

Mom: Are you in love with him?

That question was a shock to me.

Mom: As far as I remember you have never been so worried about being away from a friend. So I feel this is something more than friendship.... Though it can also be true that you did not have a close friend before...! So I can't be sure regarding my estimation.
But you say, you know him since a couple of weeks and that time is too short for you to even build a proper conversation... unless you like him from the very beginning... So.... is it that you love...

ME: Mom...!!!

She laughed.
Mom: I know you, much better than you! You are a shy person and an introvert; but I am confident that you are always cautious. So I can make out that this is person you are talking about, is really special; to have been able to impress you.

ME: Why stress on you?

Mom: Because my dear daughter is a treasure really hard to approach. Only a perfect man can find the gates to her heart.

ME: Stop it mom! It is not the way you think. I.. I... I did not know.. I .. I... am confused regarding my feelings towards him.

Mom: Fine then! Good if you don't have feelings for him. Because even if you have; you may not be able to express them to him.
Don't bother yourself too much.
If you have any problem feel free to approach me I am always there for you.

ME: I know... it is too late now to even work out my feelings.. so don't worry.. I won't end up in any such trouble.

I could feel my eyes filling up. **Stupid tears!**

She left to kitchen and I returned to his thoughts. **God! Save me from him!!**

**It is ridiculous! I never thought I would cry on a guy who left me!**
I felt shameful.
But more than that I felt surprised!

How could Radha.. one who hated men; cry over a guy??!!!

Now I feel anger substitute the sorrow. I want to see him one more time... not because I want to see him; but because I want to show him my anger.
I want to take revenge on him for making me feel uncertain and cry for him.

I felt the hatred return back to me. I am fed up with this world which is full of cheaters. I learnt not to trust or have hopes from people.

I want to go far away... to that place were no one could hurt my heart.. or best of all... I wanted to go there were I no longer existed...

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