The Sacred Violet Heart

I Need To Know.

HE: Come on! Why do you have to be so difficult! 

That reminded me of what his uncle said. **“No wonder he was working hard on you. You are a really difficult one!”** I felt angry. 

ME: Tell me whether I am Miss 16. 

HE: My uncle told you did he not? 

ME: You are not denying it! Does that mean it is true? 

He didn’t answer.  I got up to go.  He held my hand again. 

ME: Leave me! I hate playboys like you. Go romance with other girls. I am not your kind. I have aversion to men who break a woman’s heart.  

“Hello lovebirds! Don’t you people want to go home?”

It was the conductor of the bus.  I pushed HIS hand away, grabbed my bag and swiftly walked towards the bus. He climbed the bus after me. The bus was empty. I noticed the conductor talking to him. After a while, HE came and sat beside me.  I got irritated.  I tried to call the conductor. HE shut my mouth. 

HE: Just stay calm and listen to me. 

ME: Why should I? 

HE: Because you are my friend… by the way… I remember you talking about romance… is there any romance between friends? 

I felt my cheeks turn hot. **Stupid me! When will he understand that I feel him more than a friend?** 

ME: No! 

HE: Then what is your problem regarding my romance? 

He smirked. 

ME: I don’t have any problem. Go to hell.

HE: But according to you, I just returned from hell! Do you want me to go back? 

I shook my head. **I can’t bear it!** 

HE: So… are we friends again? 

I nodded. **Why is he blind towards my feelings?** 

HE: Or… do you want us to be something other than friends? 

**Why does he make life this difficult for me?** 

ME: No! 

HE: Are you sure? 

ME: Yes. 

HE: Okay! Fine then. 

He got up. I realised that we had to get down. The bus came to a sudden halt. I was about to fall. He caught me again. 

HE: Seriously Radha! You should have a bodyguard to keep you from falling all the time. 

ME: But I don’t have enough to pay that person!

HE: Then what do you think about me? I only need a chocolate per day! 

ME: No… I won’t give my dear chocolate to anyone! 

I pouted.  He laughed.  **I love being with him. If he’s there with me, I could achieve anything in the world. If only it could be possible to have him with me forever.** 

HE: After we get down the bus, I will give you all the time to stare at my face. 

I blushed and looked away.  We got down the bus. I walked towards my house.  But he followed me. 

ME: Why are you following me? 

HE: To stop you from falling.

He winked. 

ME: Get lost! I don’t need your help. 

HE: Is that all? Did I leave my job for this? 

ME: You left your job? 

HE: Yes! 

ME: Why? 

HE: I got transferred to another city. I didn’t like it there. 

**So that is why he left. By the way what does he do? I never asked him.** 

ME: If you had left for that; you should have told me! By the way, what do you do?  

HE: I am a scientist. I just wanted to play a trick on you… but I didn’t know it would go this far. I called you that night… to explain this. But you were gone. I thought you didn’t like me. So I left.  

ME: What about this violet heart? Your uncle told me it was a symbol of sacrifice and forbidden love. 

HE: It might have been. But I didn’t give it to you on that purpose. It is made of a special crystal which has the power to make you realise your purpose of life. It is a violet crystal and that is why it stimulates and strengthens your crown chakra… the highest and the ultimate one. The reason why I gave it to you was that, you have to be connected spiritually to your surroundings and the divine. Only then would you be able to understand those in need of your help. Only then would you be a healer… not a doctor or a physician.  

ME: Was that why I started feeling strange? 

HE: Yes. Maybe it was a bit difficult for you to handle. But since you didn’t turn insane totally; I can understand that you handled it properly. 

ME: But why was I feeling less like me? Why was I understanding others much better? Why could I feel their pain? Why did I feel like nature was whispering to me? Why did I not have personal emotions? 

HE: Because your consciousness has expanded beyond your physical body. You were trying to enter universal consciousness. That is what I meant, when I said it was working. 

ME: What? 

HE: Don’t you remember that night; when I spoke to you in your room and your mom interrupted? 

ME: But how? I thought it was my imagination. 

HE: No, we are connected.  

He showed a similar violet heart he was wearing. It was much brighter than mine. I was shocked. I felt mine getting brighter.

I had one more question to ask him. 

ME: Why could I not remove it? How did you put it around my neck if it did not have a hook or link? 

HE: Only I decide when to make you wear it and when to make you remove it.

ME: But… 

HE: Any other questions? 

ME: Why do I feel less like me when it glows? 

HE: It stores your individual consciousness when you are ready to move towards a higher one. 

ME: I didn’t get it.  

HE: This is something you will understand through experience. Not through explanation. 

I felt complete now. I was experiencing a new me. But beyond all that, I started admiring him even more. I could feel love and care radiate from him. The world looked different. I wanted to love everything.  

HE: I think you should go inside now.  

We were in front of my house. I didn’t want to leave him. He felt like everything to me.  

“Radha! What are you doing there?” 

My mom was at the doorway. She couldn’t see him because he was in shadows and it was dark outside. He signalled me to go.  As I entered home, I told my mom everything. She was shocked initially. Later, she seemed very glad. 

Mom: Though I didn’t like your closeness with him earlier; seeing you sad was unbearable. I hoped he would return. He was the only one who could have brought you back to normal. It is fine. Just settle down now. You are too excited. We will sort it out later. Take rest. 

I kissed her cheek.