The Sacred Violet Heart

Love!

I lazily stirred in my bed, preparing myself to get up. The first thing that appeared before my eyes, was his face. Those eyes showered so much love and care. I smiled. After the confession of the previous day, I felt much confident. 

I got ready to college, and had a peaceful day after a long time. I concentrated on my studies. I must say; I had neglected them for about 2 & ½ months. I needed to catch up.  

As I got down the bus, I was shocked again. He was sitting on the bench; but this time with 2 girls. They sat on either side of him, leaving me no place to sit. I sighed and moved towards the nearby tree. I dropped my bag on the ground and sat beside it.  I stared at the trio… feeling jealous. **Yes, I was jealous… but only jealous. No anger. No insecurity. No hatred. No grief.**

He tried to glance towards me. The girls tried desperately to turn his attention back towards them. He looked annoyed. But ultimately he had to give his attention to them and by the look of his face, before he turned back; I understood that he tried to tell me something. I just sat there, my mind was blank.  

After about 10 min, a bus arrived and the girls got up to go. I could see them extremely happy and satisfied. I smiled to see them happy. Now I slowly began to understand why he behaved like that with them. **It makes a person much happier to make others smile, than to smile by themselves.**

He waved the girls bye and turned towards me. His face showed worry as he approached me. But as he got closer, his worry got lessened a bit. He kneeled in front of me. I smiled. Looking at my smile, he was astonished.  

HE: Are you not going to scold me?

ME: Why should I? 

HE: For being close to them… 
ME: Hmm…

HE: But… I thought you would be angry for that. I thought girls in love didn’t like their man flirt with other girls. 

ME: Yes, it is true! 

He looked puzzled. He had a genuinely innocent face. **He looked too adorable!** 

ME: Do you want me scold you? 

HE: Not like that… but your calmness is scaring me. 

ME: Why? 

HE: Maybe… maybe you don’t love me… that is why you are not jealous??? 

He looked worried. **Everything about him made me love him even more.** 

ME: Who told you I was not jealous? But I love you… that is the truth and that is why I am calm.

**When you truly love someone, it means; you accept them as a whole person. It means you love each and every bit of that person. You love each thing that person does. It… just means you want that person happy and your life means nothing compared to their happiness. You lose yourself as you love that person more. When you are anyways losing yourself, your priorities and emotions don’t matter anymore. All that matters, is the well-being of that person… even if it means your absence.**

That is why, I chose to stay away from those girls (even if it hurt a tiny bit). I loved him and I believed that everything he did was right. I am content with anything as long as he is happy.

**May be that is why people in love are considered insane. But I love this insanity!** 

ME: I am fine with anything you do. You can be anyway with anyone, as long as you are happy. I won’t stop you. 

I smiled with tears in my eyes.  He seemed contended. 

HE: You understood me. I am happy to have you as my friend and beyond that. I love you. 

There were butterflies in my stomach. **He said it at last! He said something which I already knew, but still it sounded so wonderful to hear it from him.** Tears filled my eyes. **What could I do without this person? He made me laugh. He made me sad. He made me happy. He made me jealous. He made me angry. He made me worry. He made me scared. He made me experience every emotion (and everything was directed towards him). He made me complete. He made me realise the value of everything. He showed me, a new me. He was the place where I started my quest. He was the reason behind my quest. He was with me throughout the quest (secretly). He was the destination where my quest ended. He made my life worth living. And I knew that he could make my death worthy too. He was the one who would never leave me even after my death. He was literally my god. He was my everything.**

He placed his palm on my head. **I felt some strange energy in me. I closed my eyes, I found a strange glow around us. I noticed that the source of the glow was us… but I could not make out clearly because we were not separate anymore. I was melted into him while he expanded, as much as I could perceive and beyond.**

I don’t know how long we were like that, but as I opened my eyes, I found my head resting on his huge chest. His breath was on the back of my head, where my spine began. A jolt ran down, till the end of my spine. **I wanted to stay like that forever, feeling him; outside me and inside me at the same time.** I may have blushed, but I did not move away. **Why should I? He was my husband!** It felt like we were married for ages. I felt the awkwardness and invisible wall between us, melt. I could hear his heartbeat as my own. **I could spend centuries like this.**

I smiled and he gently stroked my head. I looked up to see his handsome face. His eyes caught mine and we stared into each other without a word. Words were not required, because they could never express the “__________” between us.  I looked around. There was no one around.

**Where was I? It didn’t matter though; when he was with me.** Then I realised we were at the same place, under that tree. I slowly and unwillingly got up, but stopped midway; as our violet hearts got tangled together. We laughed and he patiently untangled them. Then he reached for his bag and brought out a beautiful flute from it. My eyes widened.  

ME: Do you play flute? 

HE: Yes, it is my hobby. I play it when I feel like I need to.

ME: Wow! I love flute music. 

HE: I know. Don’t ask me how. I am your husband and I know everything about you. 

I blushed. He started playing the flute, at first it started slowly, but as it got intensified, I drifted into nothingness. 

A short squeeze of my arm brought me back. He smiled and signalled towards the bus. I got up. His fingers were twined with mine. We walked hand in hand, and climbed the bus. The journey was silent. 

HE: Good night! 

ME: Sweet dreams! 

I walked home alone. I was perfectly calm. I was greeted by smiling mom, dad & sister. They seemed to be happy.  

Mom: After a long time, the colour returned to your face. 

Dad: You look much better now. We were worried about you. 

Sister: Thank god! Sis is back to normal. 

Mom & Dad: Not normal, actually much better!

All of us laughed. 

ME: You people don’t need to worry anymore. 

All 3: What? 

ME: You will come to know later. 

All 3: Tell us! 

ME: No, it has to come from official source. I can’t give you false hopes. 

Dad: Okay fine. Just make sure you don’t fall into another trouble. We all love you. 

ME: I love you all too. 

I finished my dinner and kissed them all on their cheeks. **God! I am really lucky to have this wonderful family, and such a wonderful husband. This was the day my purpose of life was fulfilled.**

I slipped into deep sleep.