Unlovable ✧ H.S

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fourteen

I woke with a headache and I was beyond freezing. I took every bit of the sheets and blankets and wrapped myself into a human cocoon. I laughed at how I probably look now, memories of how my mother would always do this when I was younger came to mind and I let out a tear. I haven't seen my mother in a while and I most certainly have to tell her everything, besides Sasha and Alex, I had no other best friends so I didn't have a group of people to gossip or get lectures from besides my mom and them.

Would my mom be mad that I broke off the engagement with Jeremy? Would she tell me it was the right thing? How will she react to his cheating ways? How would she take my feelings for Harry and Niall? Could I even tell her all of this? All these internal questions made my brain hurt, which caused my simple morning headache to become a migraine. I was having a war in my head. One side is getting out of the warmth to get medicine, but the other side is to hopefully fall back asleep and wake up later and have no headache. I chose the second side and closed my eyes. I felt my body going into its deep sleep but then my body jerked up with banging on my door. Could I ever have any peace?!

I made sure to take my sweet time getting out of bed because I knew I would get whiplash and then just say screw that person and go back to sleep. I reached the door and opened it without hesitation. I thought I'd see one of the boys or all of them and then be bombarded by loud mouths and a rambunctious Louis wanting to probably go jump on a trampoline or swim with sharks, with a mind like his, I wouldn't ever be surprised. Instead, I was brought with a face I could never forget, at least I have been trying to forget for more than a week now. I felt anger and sickness at the same time. He stood in front of me and was silent, but so was I because I had not expected this.

"Can I come in?"

"Uh, no."

"Oh. I'll just stand here then."

"Fine with me."

I kept spouting off at the mouth because my anger was really starting to boil just by him talking.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do, you know."

"You didn't mean to do what?"

"You know.. It."

"What's it?"

"Stop playing dumb."

Jeremy hit his fist against the door and made his way into my room.

"I did not tell you to come in."

"Well that's too bad because I am in now."

Who was this? What happened to the old Jeremy I love- loved?

"Why didn't you reply to my texts or answer my calls?"

"Because I don't have to."

"But you should."

"You can't just barge in here demanding answers and be rude to me when you're the one in the wrong."

"I'm in the wrong? You didn't tell me you were leaving and you broke our pictures and gave back your ring."

"I didn't tell you because we were no longer together and you were f*cking some slut in Thailand, if you were even there! Those pictures are yours, everything in that house is yours, I want no part of that house or you. That ring, is yours, it obviously meant nothing to you. I'm honestly glad I found out sooner than later. Now, get the f*ck out a**hole."

I was really letting myself go and throwing everything I can at him, words and emotions wise. I probably have steam coming out of my ears!

"What?"

"You heard me, get the f*ck-"

I was cut off by a hand coming in contact with my face. My hand felt its way up to my cheek and it was burning and stinging. Did I just get slapped? Did Jeremy just slap me?

"I wouldn't have done that If you weren't such an ignorant b*tch."

"Leave."

I kept hold of my cheek and I was holding back tears.

"Oh, is innocent Hope going to cry?"

"You are a cheating a**hole."

"That's funny actually, you should have seen some of the things I did to her, the way she responded to me and she was like putty in my hands when she screamed my name. She did things you never did, I did things I would have done to you if you weren't such a bitch. Your worthless and ugly. You are fat and nobody wants you. I got with you because I felt bad for you. If it wasn't for Harry trying to pay off the bet, I would have lost interest. But once I saw in your eyes that you liked him, I knew I couldn't let him win. The way he begged for me to call it off, and I knew he kept tabs on you when he left. Him knowing that I stuck around on your worthless a** was going to be priceless. Did you really think that I had so much work to do that I needed to stay at work all day and night? So naïve and stupid you are, but the way you bought it was great. But do you know who the girl was? Sasha, she's a real slut that one. The way she betrayed her 'best friend' was just the topping on the cake. She was surprised to see me at first but once she let me in, there was no denying me. Come on, look at me, I'm too good for you."

I had no words, no air to breath, the walls were closing in on me and my body was about to collapse. My whole world just crumbled down to nothing. How could all that be true? What bet? Why would Harry need to pay him off? I don't even know what all was going on.

"Confused are we? I can tell by the dumb look on your face. What part the f*cking your best friend part or betting part?"

My eyes shot down further to the ground and I knew I just gave him the answer.

"Well it was easy actually. Some guys and I made a bet that you would give yourself up to me and they bet a very big amount. I guess Harry overheard because when he showed up at my house the night before he disappeared, he offered to pay all of the money the guys put up for me to stop and back out, I saw the way his eyes lit up when he talked about you, I couldn't back out because it would be too easy for him, I turned his offer down but then he even tried to pay me to stay with you but call off the bet and treat you right. I didn't take his money but I knew it would hurt him to know I was with you and he wasn't."

Things were piecing together and now my heart ached even more. Not only did Jeremy betray me, Harry did too. I feel like I could never trust anyone again.

"I kept my distance from you, but no too much because I wanted to see how long you'd last, it went pretty far until I buttdialed you and you heard all the moans and screams."

"SHUT UP! SHUT THE F*CK UP! IM CALLING PAUL."

I started to run to my phone but then arms engulfed my waist and I fell to the floor.

"You aren't calling no one. Nobody's gonna hear you cry and scream, nobody cares for you."

I kept punching Jeremy's chest but he wouldn't get off of me.

"Stop moving."

I kept thrashing my body around and I wasn't going to give up this fight. My hand got loose and I punched him in the nose.

Jeremy's hand went to his now bloody nose.

"You f*cking b*tch."

His fist came down on my face, hard. I tried to move from his pounding fist but I couldn't. My face started to go numb and I couldn't feel anything. I had to give it one more try. I screamed at the top of my lungs until I was shut up with a slap in the mouth.

The last thing I heard were running footsteps and seeing shadows storm in before complete darkness came over my whole body. My mind, my eyes, every part of me just let go.