Newt Imagines (Maze Runner)

It's Always My Fault

You had been in the glade for two months and living in the maze was just like living in hell. Probably because of you need to do many jobs and you'd be extremely tired after a long day. Or maybe because the second in command disliked you (more like hated you) and he kept telling you to do this and that like you're a maid but that was just a part of the reason you hated the glade.

One month ago, the creators sent another girl to the glade and guess what, Newt actually liked her. I mean, everyone in the glade like her because she knew how to attract their heart. But you knew better, she hated you and she will do anything to let the others hate you too.

Once, she broke something 'accidentally' and said it was you who broke it and the others believed her. You slept in the slammer one night without dinner. When the builders build a new room for her, she took out one of the nails and the room's structure was ruined. And again, she told the others that it was you who took the nail. They shut you in the slammer for 2 days and nights.

The most unforgettable 'experience' was when both of you got into a heated fight and you slapped her. Newt saw it and he almost got you banished. He didn't even know that she was grinning devilishly at you, he didn't know that she started it. He didn't know that before you slapped her, she actually punched you.

They let you out from the slammer after a week. You saw the gladers giving you cold stares but you ignored them. You was chopping some carrots in the kitchen when the girl, Carmen walked into the kitchen.

"I can't believe they didn't banish you." She said while you rolled your eyes. "You don't belong here, the others disliked you. Even I started to feel sorry for you." You gritted your teeth and glared at her.

"If you don't have anything else to do, leave the kitchen now." You said to her and she scoffed.

"What makes you think that I will leave? Especially when I can talk to a loser like you." You finally had enough and you use your knife and pointed at her. When you were about to say something, Newt appeared at the kitchen and his eyes widened.

"Y/N! Put the bloody knife down!" He yelled at you. You glared at him but you didn't put down your knife. You returned your gaze to Carmen and saw her grinned at you. She suddenly pretended she was shocked and was terrified.

"Y/N! What are you doing? Please put down your knife!" She said but you didn't move.

"Y/N! PUT IT DOWN." You heard Newt said and you bit your lower lip. "Why do you have to break the rules!? Why is it always you who was making troubles?!" He screamed at you and you froze. You stared at him, in his eyes, you were the trouble maker, you were the one who always break the rules. He never seen the way the others treated you. He never seen the other gladers bullying you, all he know is you are the one who make a lot of troubles.

"I don't even know why Alby doesn't want to banish you" he said. And that was it, you can't hold it anymore, years were finally streaming down your face and you threw your knife at the wall.

"Shuck it! I got it alright! I am always the one who makes those troubles! I am always the one who breaks the rules! It was always my fault!" You was screaming at him, letting your anger explode as you kept on shouting. "You never see the truth! You only believe what you saw! You only trust her!" You pointed at Carmen. "You never know that she was the one who broke the windows! You never know that she was the one who took out the nail and said it was me who did it! But still you believed her! You didn't gave me the chance to explain, to say that it wasn't me!"

"You thought I slapped her was a big deal huh? Then do you know that she punched me before I slapped her!" You shook your head at him. "You don't know! You don't know how it feels when you're innocent but you have to stay in the slammer, crying and lying on the ground alone! You don't know how I feel when the gladers bullied me, you don't even know they bullied me!" You walked past him and glared at him.

"If you really want to banish me, if you really don't want me to live in the glade. Then, fine! I'll go! Go on and celebrate your life without me because I am not thinking of coming back! Even when the grievers didn't find me, I will find them and let them kill me! I rather die than living here!" You screamed at him and ran towards the maze.

Newt was dumbfounded when you said that. Memories of him trying to kill himself played in his head. He saw himself standing beside you as you said you want to die. He saw the boy that thought he didn't have anything left in the glade. When he blinked, he saw your eyes that was tired, furious and sad. He felt empty as you ran away from the glade, from him. His legs ran towards you when he didn't thought of running to you. They moved as fast as they can even when Newt didn't want to run towards you. His muscles weren't listening to him.

He didn't know why he was moving so fast, he thought that it should be wonderful if you leave the glade. He even imagined how he'd feel if you were banished, but now he was feeling so different. He was afraid of losing you, he wanted to stop you before its too late. He wanted you to be there the next day, he wanted to see you running around the glade, doing those jobs and sometimes glare at him.

He was surprised when tears slowly came down from his brown eyes, he realised that he cared for you, he just didn't notice that. He was too busy scolding you everytime you made a tiny mistake. He was too busy listening to Carmen's nonsense about how you broke the rules that he didn't even know that he was in love with you.

"Y/N! WHERE ARE YOU!?" He screamed as he went into the maze. He thought he'd never come into the maze after the incident. He thought he was afraid of the maze and the grievers. But now, he was standing in the middle of the maze just to find you. He was afraid of losing you forever. He heard the sound of you sobbing and crying loudly and he immediately ran towards the sound.

He stopped when he saw you curled up in the corner of the corridor, his heart sank when he saw how broken you were. He walked towards you and wrapped his arms around you.

"GO AWAY YOU SHUCK FACE!" You tried to push him away but you were too tired and exhausted. He didn't want to let go and you finally gave up. "STAY AWAY FROM ME!" You shouted at him, you didn't need his pity.

"Y/N, come back to the glade with me." He whispered at you. You shook your head fiercely and said, "Shuck of!"

"Y/N, please come with me." He held you tightly but you didn't want to go back. "Y/N, I...I can't let you go"

"Shut up! How dare you say you can't let me go after everything you did to me!"

"Y/N just..." he was speechless. You were right, how dare he said he can't let you go when he was the one who lead you into this maze. He looked up the sky and closed his eyes. The door must've closed right now. There's no point for him to go back now.

"Its alright. I will stay with you if you don't want to go back. I will stay here with you, even when it means I am dying." He whispered to you as he heard the sound of grievers approaching.