The Bad Boy's Bet

Chapter 20

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Zinnias P.O.V

I can't move. Where am I?

Oh yeah I got into a car crash. How am I so calm about this? I should be freaking out yet I feel relaxed. This is weird?

I'm awake, I can hear, feel, but I can't open my eyes or move anything.

Maybe they drugged me. Or maybe I'm in a coma? Dang it why couldn't I be like a movie and have my spirit come out of my body and see everything. Like that movie "If I Stay". That was a good movie. I actually watched that movie with Aaron....

As if I got whiplash all my memories of what happened with me and Aaron came back and now I feel sad again. Why couldn't I stay asleep in my coma the whole time so I didn't have to feel this heartbreaking pain.

Why did he do it? I thought he loved me? I thought we were in love? But I guess it was all a lie. 

I just don't understand, I thought we were so happy with each other, At least I was.

There was a certain thrill being with Aaron. Maybe because I knew he was bad. Or maybe because I knew it was wrong and forbidden to be with him. But he just made everything so exciting.

He didn't care about things he was just so free and that's one of the many things I loved about him. He always made me feel so careless and happy, there was so much excitement and passion. Even before we dated.

I feel a tear run down my cheek even though I can't move or open my eyes.

Great just great.

It just hurts so much, I feel so used and betrayed. I feel played...

Did he have feelings for me at all?

I think he did. Judging by the way he acted towards me, he did care for me. I'm not stupid or like those girls in a movie, who act clueless, and they can't read any sign's that the guy gives. There always like 'Is he flirting with me? No he couldn't be.'

Anyways I know he had some feelings for me maybe not at first but I could still tell later on that they were there. But it doesn't matter our whole relationship was started with a lie and the intention to hurt me, So I don't care if he liked me or not. I won't be with a liar.

Why did i fall for him?
Why did i fall for his tricks?

I knew it was weird for the player of the town to suddenly change and settle down for me, but i didn't want to believe it. I wanted to think he changed for me, that he loved me. but I was just fooling myself.

I knew it was strange from the first moment he asked me out. God I'm so stupid. He asked me out only after a few weeks of knowing each other, our whole relationship was way too fast. But when your with someone everyday all the time it start to feel longer than it is. Days feel like months and months start to feel like years.

I know now why all the girls fall for him, He was so convincing and charming he really made me believe i was special. But can you blame me for loving him. I try to act all tough and like I don't need anyone but in reality I'm still human and a teenage girl. I wanted that cliche book/ movie life where I got the bad boy and he changed for me then we lived happily ever after. But I realize now that, That's not life. The sad truth is real life is not a movie or a book.

Another tear falls out of my closed eyes.

I feel someone squeeze my hand? "Oh god. Baby please don't cry. Please wake up" I hear a voice that I had gotten so used to love.